I was socially retarded when i was a kid, not even bluepilled, just oblivious about the whole social aspect of humans. During college I became a delusional feminist who did everything possible to look more attractive to women, and tried to develop a soy personality: patient, kind, tolerant, generous, attentive, calm, positive ... I became a buddhist, i joined the most new age and flowepower buddhist sect that I found and i meditated 4 hours every day, I frequented anarchist , anticapitalist and communist circles, and became a radical leftist in every political matter ... After graduating as a virgin and without friends, I got depressed and started to read and take seriously pessimists like Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, Camus, Heidegger, Cioran, Pessoa, Houellebecq, Tanabe, Maquiavelli, Kierkegaard, Krishnamurti etc ... I became an alt righter and anti-feminist for a while (cringe), until just embracing nihilism and giving up a few years ago. I dont really care about politics anymore, tbh. Then I discovered that there was a group of self called involuntary celibates. It was enough for me to read the concept to know that I belonged to the community. After reading a lot about them, I joined r / incels and told my whole life. I found that the black pill was basically true, and a perfect conclusion to my intelectual journey. Just a few weeks later r / incels was banned, all my contributions were lost and i thought it was over. A few days later I discovered incels.is, and i joined. Now i want to write something about atheism and nihilism. I think i will find myself confortable in this ideology for a long time.
