All my life has been since I've been old enough to work was wake up, go to work, come home, eat, sleep. Then on the weekends, I just rot in loneliness without any type of fun experiences to look forward to. I don't speak to no one, no one speaks to me. Then, the cycle repeats again. That's how it's been for as long as I can remember.
I envy those incels that at least have friends. I have no one. Zero friends, never had a girlfriend, barely functioning family.
I'm slowly losing my sanity hour by hour, day by day. I've noticed that I have become more frustrated and angry. Before it was just sadness. I'm scared that I will have a mental breakdown and do something I regret. My brain is slowly deteriorating. I don't know how long I can keep going.
The thing that breaks me the most is how I missed out on teen love. There's isn't a single day where I daydream how I'm a young teenager and I'm kissing my pretty teenage girlfriend, laying on the grass after school, just pure euphoria running through my veins, not worrying about anything. But now it's too late.
Everything feels so empty, hollow. I'm numb.
I envy those incels that at least have friends. I have no one. Zero friends, never had a girlfriend, barely functioning family.
I'm slowly losing my sanity hour by hour, day by day. I've noticed that I have become more frustrated and angry. Before it was just sadness. I'm scared that I will have a mental breakdown and do something I regret. My brain is slowly deteriorating. I don't know how long I can keep going.
The thing that breaks me the most is how I missed out on teen love. There's isn't a single day where I daydream how I'm a young teenager and I'm kissing my pretty teenage girlfriend, laying on the grass after school, just pure euphoria running through my veins, not worrying about anything. But now it's too late.
Everything feels so empty, hollow. I'm numb.
