BrapZilian
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Fear, and othER reasons that make me wait for a bettER future
Too much of a pussy to do it. Also my brother and mother would be sad.
It do be like that sometimes.Fear, hopes, no motivations, don't want to hurt loved ones?
Hmmm, not sure if cope or not. I read so much but it does not satisfy me anymoreThe pursuit of knowledge
I hate alcohol but I get your point.It do be like that sometimes.
Some fucking hope + getting wasted once every 1-2 weeks is like a cleansing ritual ngl
Will you livestream?I'm gonna save some money, then be a NEET for a couple of months, coping with shows and games. Once the money runs out, i will kill myself.
No. I wanna go out in peace.Will you livestream?
Like the dude in your avatar pic.No. I wanna go out in peace.
Gonna die anyways. Why bother. The ultimate blackpill is everyone dies alone in an old age home. I want to see the chads and stacies eating this blackpill while I continue to cope and not care.
Mogs me to Mars and back.One sentence
My life is not yet shit enough
I am rather wealthy for being a minimalistic autist and having a high paying job when I was younger, still my life is misrable.Money and hatred
Kind of have this mindset too as I really believe something big will happen in the near future(a 9/11 type situation but like 10 times bigger/start of WWIII)I'll admit I still have hope.
Not to ascend, but to see this world falling apart so I have my "I told you so!" moment.
Try anything that can help you ascend somehowMe personally, I am starting to lose copes. I am lost, it is not just my ugliness but also my mind, I am a prisoner of my diseased brain, I can't ever change. I wish I was Neurotypical, normal, I don't even care about my looks, just so sick of my malfunctioning brain.
I envy the dead or those with no insight, those with Down Syndrome or just the lack of any self-awarness, I wish I had the mind of an animal, just pure instinct and no reason, than life would be bearable.
So, what keeps you alive? Fear, hopes, no motivations, don't want to hurt loved ones?
I rarely get wasted alone tho. Just a bit faded when I'm boredI hate alcohol but I get your point.
I’m going to cope hard with money by spending tens of thousands on plastic surgery and living in a lavish mansion with nice cars. Still have a few years to go before I make 150k+ but it will be all upward mobility from there.I am rather wealthy for being a minimalistic autist and having a high paying job when I was younger, still my life is misrable.
Kind of have this mindset too as I really believe something big will happen in the near future(a 9/11 type situation but like 10 times bigger/start of WWIII)
I used to do well when I was drunk but sometime in my 20s even that faded, I just got more and more depressed until I realized that not even Booze can't help me anymore.I rarely get wasted alone tho. Just a bit faded when I'm bored
You should probably drink on occasion like normies do. If you know any I mean. It helps me socialize tbh
I really suck when im sober.
You know there is a lot to do. Things that I'm afraid of. Things that I know I should do but don't want to. Shit to see. Games to play.
Probably those things that you don't know very well yet but want to discover or master them to some degree.
I have around 80k and some savings put into Gold but I probably won't do shit with it. Like I said, I am a minimalist and have no car,live in a one room and almost empty apartment.I’m going to cope hard with money by spending tens of thousands on plastic surgery and living in a lavish mansion with nice cars. Still have a few years to go before I make 150k+ but it will be all upward mobility from there.
I used to do well when I was drunk but sometime in my 20s even that faded, I just got more and more depressed until I realized that not even Booze can't help me anymore.
I have around 80k and some savings put into Gold but I probably won't do shit with it. Like I said, I am a minimalist and have no car,live in a one room and almost empty apartment.
I wish I could understand the appeal of minimalism, but I just can’t. In another life, I would want to live my days as a monk, free from any desires of materialism and the flesh. I will not suffer the ugly hand that I have been dealt. I will gather as many resources as I can to get what I want. I would literally kill myself if not for the possibilities that money brings to the table.I used to do well when I was drunk but sometime in my 20s even that faded, I just got more and more depressed until I realized that not even Booze can't help me anymore.
I have around 80k and some savings put into Gold but I probably won't do shit with it. Like I said, I am a minimalist and have no car,live in a one room and almost empty apartment.
brutallll, so you spend your days in old-age homes watching old people die?Gonna die anyways. Why bother. The ultimate blackpill is everyone dies alone in an old age home. I want to see the chads and stacies eating this blackpill while I continue to cope and not care.
Think you do*My dad being sad and I also enjoy the alone,quiet moments of living.
I want to see what technology,anime and the west itself become.
The difference between reality and death is that I already know the tragectory of one of them.
One sentence
My life is not yet shit enough
At this point only my three years younger brother who is currently studying and busy with it. I don't want to put him through all the shit that would come after my suicide right now. So i wait until he finishes it and gets a job.Me personally, I am starting to lose copes. I am lost, it is not just my ugliness but also my mind, I am a prisoner of my diseased brain, I can't ever change. I wish I was Neurotypical, normal, I don't even care about my looks, just so sick of my malfunctioning brain.
I envy the dead or those with no insight, those with Down Syndrome or just the lack of any self-awarness, I wish I had the mind of an animal, just pure instinct and no reason, than life would be bearable.
So, what keeps you alive? Fear, hopes, no motivations, don't want to hurt loved ones?