To be, or not to be, that is the question.
I obviously need to stop but just can't. I mean why would I? what good do I get from stopping myself? somewhere, ive heard advice that you should be seeing what you are getting out of anything, anywhere, anytime (although not phrased like this). and I don't see any net gain. 1. its a pain to stop 2. even if i feel no pleasure, I still feel more at ease afterwards. "well itll make you feel better about yourself" and inherently at the same time, I feel disgust to NOT jerk off and put so much thought into it, enemies on both sides. I have grown numb to it, to such a point I think more about whats going on in the porn, what a life the whore that is getting her hole filled has, maybe something completely veering off, as if i am in a movie, rather than focusing on, doing the thing. And it takes me quite awhile before I can fucking splurge all over my hand, so im just rubbing my dingle in endless thought for an hour.
Like what the fuck, and the fact I am talking about it as if its something to be proud of. "oh then just dont talk about it dumbass" well man, maybe so. How i can be both disgusted in not doing AND doing, is beyond me. The only way to get out of this dillema or paradox, is if i were a completely different person, that was never exposed to porn at a very, very young age. Actually no, its the jews, the jews are at fault. goddammit!!! even if i was never exposed then, id be bound to be exposed in the future. fucking gay bastards.
I obviously need to stop but just can't. I mean why would I? what good do I get from stopping myself? somewhere, ive heard advice that you should be seeing what you are getting out of anything, anywhere, anytime (although not phrased like this). and I don't see any net gain. 1. its a pain to stop 2. even if i feel no pleasure, I still feel more at ease afterwards. "well itll make you feel better about yourself" and inherently at the same time, I feel disgust to NOT jerk off and put so much thought into it, enemies on both sides. I have grown numb to it, to such a point I think more about whats going on in the porn, what a life the whore that is getting her hole filled has, maybe something completely veering off, as if i am in a movie, rather than focusing on, doing the thing. And it takes me quite awhile before I can fucking splurge all over my hand, so im just rubbing my dingle in endless thought for an hour.
Like what the fuck, and the fact I am talking about it as if its something to be proud of. "oh then just dont talk about it dumbass" well man, maybe so. How i can be both disgusted in not doing AND doing, is beyond me. The only way to get out of this dillema or paradox, is if i were a completely different person, that was never exposed to porn at a very, very young age. Actually no, its the jews, the jews are at fault. goddammit!!! even if i was never exposed then, id be bound to be exposed in the future. fucking gay bastards.
