High Iq tbh
We need to stop consuming ,
it fucks our brain up til we have no fantasy anymore .
Thats a really nice hobby , especially for Incels .
Jesus allegedly also worked in this profession as a carpenter .
I , for myself disnt create much until now and i really regret it .
Consuming useless shit has really fucked with my brain ( attention span / reward system restructured by instant gratification ) and it also ruined my fantasy .
I love to listen to Hip Hop/Rap and i want to learn to create nice Beats , but everytime i start The Application i get frustrated and put it down 2 minutes later .
Im such a fucking failure .
I know that the start of learning something is always the hardest , but i am a undisciplined piece of shit so instead i lay down and rot .
And as time goes by i just get more bitter and regret that i disnt create something that makes me happy
and instead just indulged in instant gratification that made me momentarily happy but depressed in the long run .
I that sense , i still havent grown up even though im 23 .
I cant take responsibilty and just ruin my own Life by being a passive consumer without any ambition .
I always find some bullshit excuse , cause i dont want to do the hard work , i just want the final product to magically appear in front of me .
Thats such a big flaw in my personality .
So , im not only ugly on the outside .
Im also ugly on the inside .
Sry for the rant .