What do you think of when you are lying in bed with your eyes closed, before you fall asleep?

[i_a_m_i]

Do you think of a fantasy in which you are not the same as you are now, and in which you exist to do something?
Do you think of how things would be if the past were different?
Do you think of your life's prospects?
Do you think of what's going to happen when you wake up?
Do you want to wake up?


Sometimes, I think of the future that awaits me in the real world. How I will have to work a low-wage job, how I won't be able to retire, how I will not enjoy it, and how I won't be allowed to do the things that others do.

Sometimes, I think of my past. How I was happier as a child, how I used to feel excitement and a desire to do things, and how those memories are my greatest possession.

Sometimes, I think of the present. How I am laying in this bed, how my hand is positioned on my chest, how my head rests against the pillow, how my torso and legs feel on the matress and under the weight of the blanket, and that is it.

Sometimes, I think of how things would be if they were different. If I were different, if other people were different, if the world were different, then maybe it wouldn't be the same.

Sometimes, I think of myself as non-existant. How I exist and I do not exist, how I am here but I am not here, how my mind is blank and yet I am thinking.

Sometimes, I wonder why things are the way they are.

And sometimes, I think of nothing at all, but my heart starts to race, and I cannot stand being in the darkness any longer, so I get my phone and watch youtube.

 

[Clock Tower]

I think of what could I have possibly done in my previous life to be this ugly

 

[Insomniac]

I think of everything. It’s why I can’t get to sleep. I wish my brain could relax.

 

[Zesto]

Hotaru because I go to sleep holding my Hotaru dakimakura.

 

[i_a_m_i]

Hotaru because I go to sleep holding my Hotaru dakimakura.

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That's smart.

 

[Deleted member 14577]

Daily events (if there were any), the mistakes I've made in life, people I know, death, loneliness, sex, animals, humanity and human nature, the universe... mostly just cliche bullshit. When I'm in bed I'm usually hugging my pillow imagining it's a woman that is hugging me back.

The more interseting thoughts I have are based around the limitation of human mind, I often wonder what are the things that the human mind can't experience. Are there some universal secrets that we will never be able to grasp? Reading Call of Cthulhu was a huge catalyst for my thoughts, I often think of the concept of the existance of something like Cthulhu, it puts into perspective how small we actually are and yet to ourselves we seem large, larger than life in some cases. It is interesting how the human mind works, not just mine but collectively, every belief, every opinion and every preference I believe is determined by our nature as humans, the only difference being as to how it manifests in different specimens. I get fairly dissasociated at night when I lay in the dark I feel as if I don't exist and that I'm just an outside observer in this universe. When I'm alone in the dark I feel at peace sometimes, I feel like I am in the only place I can and deserve to be.

It seems that I just go down my minds rabbit hole and watch the ride when I'm in bed.

 

[Rice Cel]

I try not to think too much so I can fall asleep faster

 

[Agent_Coper]

I daydream about me being a mangaka, a successful programmer, or the president/prime minister of a country. A cute girl (usually my waifu) is always with me on these journeys. However, by the time I go to bed I already feel half dead, so I fall asleep very fast.

 

[Red Shambhala]

Usually I have sexual daydreams. Sometimes I have sexualized daydreams. Sometimes non-sexualized daydreams of grandeur in which I make my parents proud by showing them the mansion I now live in. Sometimes I have fantasies revolving around violence, to say it as diplomatic as possible.

 

[Blacktarpill]

Tbh my hand goes automatically to my penis.

 

[Spite]

I listen to music and dream of a life I'll never have

 

[Mainländer]

Naked blonde JBs, of course.

 

[Deleted member]

animals.

 

[Deleted member 265]

nothing

 

[quinn24]

I think about falling asleep

 

[Moustachcel]

Suicide

 

[Deleted member 9229]

I think of me and my therapist in a room, we’re both naked and she is sucking my dick

 

[Deleted member 1042]

I don't think of the past or anything that would make me feel sadness, regret. I wouldn't be able to sleep. It used to be something I did when I as a teenager and life was hell.

 

[Indari]

suffering

 

[nekomimimodo]

I daydream about anime I'm watching and I imagine myself along with the characters, having fun and going on adventures. Its kind of therapeutic, helps me drift off to sleep.

 

[Deleted member 4159]

I hope that i sleep well and wake up refreshed

 

[everythingislava]

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[caudino]

daydreaming

 

[StaroRavager]

Do you think of a fantasy in which you are not the same as you are now, and in which you exist to do something?
Do you think of how things would be if the past were different?
Do you think of your life's prospects?

Sometimes, I think of my past. How I was happier as a child, how I used to feel excitement and a desire to do things, and how those memories are my greatest possession.

Sometimes, I think of the present. How I am laying in this bed, how my hand is positioned on my chest, how my head rests against the pillow, how my torso and legs feel on the matress and under the weight of the blanket, and that is it.

Sometimes, I think of how things would be if they were different. If I were different, if other people were different, if the world were different, then maybe it wouldn't be the same.

Sometimes, I think of myself as non-existant. How I exist and I do not exist, how I am here but I am not here, how my mind is blank and yet I am thinking.

Sometimes, I wonder why things are the way they are.

I think of all these things and then my last thoughts are "stfu brain its 3am and we've been going at this for years". For years my days have been filled with analysis, fantasy, and introspection and when its finally time to shut off so I can rest I still keep thinking, musing, planning, and questioning until all of my energy runs out and sleep overtakes me

 

[ropecel_is_cope]

I think about falling asleep

slayer

 

[Weed]

Nothing. I fall asleep with weed fast af boiiii

 

[Deleted member 5712]

If it is during a workday I think of my next steps I'm going to do when I go back to work.
On the weekends I usually think about sexual scenarios and wishing I could get a gf or somehow go back in time.
On days when I just bought a new game or new content comes out I usually think about what I'll do the next time I login.

 

[Deleted member 126]

This thread makes me think of my low iq. All I think before falling asleep is porn. I wish I was high iq.

 

[Deleted member 265]

im too low iq to think