2012 age 15 - I had a semicrush on a year younger girl from school, I send her text over facebook that I like her and she answered "oh yeah I heard that" and stopped answering
2013 age 16 - a cute freshman came to school and she was probably the most wanted girl there. My fuckboy friend wanted to get her and I felt jelly as fuck and whiteknighted to her. Pathetic cuck. She had an incel boyfriend at the start of the year so I thought I have a chance. We were chatting for a month and I started to act like a retard and she started to answer very coldly and I got some dignity and stopped talking to her. My depression started after this adventure.
2014 early age 17 - I started to develop feelings to my classmate from new school. She was cute as fuck and never had a boyfriend. After a hopeless year I gave her a love letter, she answered that she doesn't feel the same way as me
before that she went on a date with my chadlite friend who I barely introduced to her what absolutely ruined our 10yo friendship and after some time she was in a relationship with 2nd best class friend who was also in love with her. At him I wasn't mad because he didn't know about my crush and I knew that his started even sooner. Their relationship lasted a month and they lived 60km apart so he didn't even fuck her.
2014 late age 17 - freshman came, petite, skinny as fuck blue eyed blondie. She was always sitting alone outside of her group and everytime I saw her my heart was melting. I wrote to her on facebook and we were chatting a lot. She was smiling to me at school corridors, we had our awkward conversations from time to time at breaks because both of us were introverted retards with no social skill. Few months later she said that she doesn't find me attractive so I thought that it's a time to confess to my classmate (look above). After I told that her she went apeshit and was like hurr durr you act like you love me but then confess to her and I told her wtf bitch you said that you don't find me attractive and look for a chad (she literally said that she won't get a bf unless he's ideal). We had a cold war for some time but it calmed down we were on normal terms again but she started to insult me and told me to gtfo. I had zero sign of life from her for 2 months and then she wrote something completely irrelevant and when I asked her what the fuck she thinks I am she said "o oh stop being so sensitive tehee" and I was a cuck so I forgave her. We lived for half of a year without conflicts but the prom was getting close and I took for granted that she'll come with me. I asked her that and she said no. I was like ok you don't like partying that's understandable. And after few minutes I left her she send me a text "I would like to but (nameoftheguy) will be mad. I asked her "is that your boyfriend?" and she answered "I-I think so". I felt like total shit. My innocent pure blonde virgin got her first boyfriend and I couldn't do shit about this. I blocked her on everything. Somehow we started to talk once more. She came to my graduation ceremony, she gave me my first and only hug from her, I tried to kiss her cheek (but kissed her hair instead kek). We waved to each other and I blocked her for good to finally forget about her. It didn't went well, I was still crying at nights after half of a year. There was her 18th birthday and I bought her a gift and wrote a letter. I gave it to her through her classmate. She wrote sms "thank you it's beautiful" and I didn't answer to not get back to that friendzone. After a week she send another sms. "you know what that was a really shitty move" and after some smsfight her chad called me and told me to leave her alone kek. I wasn't sad that day. I was literally fucking MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. I was so mad at her it helped my to finally get over it. Kind of. I still dream about her from time to time but I don't feel that devastating love anymore.
2017 age 20 - girlfriend of my 14yo prettyboy "friend" from the same village came there. She was 16. He was too fucking scared to come and even say hello to her so I said to her "why is your boyfriend ignoring you?" and she smiled sadly. I thought "OMFGGGGG WHY HE'S SUCH A CUCK AND HAS SO PRETTY GF. She looked like midget prime kirsten dunst (she's like 1.56m), I was fucking melting while looking at her. I thought that trying to cuck my teenage friend would be very fucking unhonorable but I finally gave up on my morals and invited her on facebook. I wrote to her and I find out that she's also a weeb and koreaboo. We were chatting till 4am that day. I was supposed to meet her at some local outdoor party but when I tried to talk to her she was very avoidant and were avoiding me for the rest of the night. My younger cousin and his gf (friend of my weebgirl) was there and she said that she doesn't knkw why she acts like this and that she was very happy when I wrote to her. After this night she absolutely ghosted me and wasn't answering me at all. In the last call of virgin rage I baited her out of her house with help of my cousin's gf to confess her my love but she didnt let me say a word and said "leave me alone dude". Sad story indeed. She left me on the verge of suicide and mental hospital. I was never so broken but somehow managed to stand up, no white roastie will stop me from getting my asian wife one day.
I wonder if anyone will even read this