Blackpill Went back to drinking

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Thought I could quit, but the moment I had the money I went back to the bottle. Life has been so rough. Lately I look back, and I look at the state that I am in, and all I see is a wounded animal who can't take care of himself.

He has given up on everything. Even himself. I don't know what's the point of anything. I wish I had the strength to stand proud and do something, but I always go back to the bottle.

Stuck in this same place that I constantly try to get away from. A broken man. Hurting from my own failures.

I'm 23 for God's sake. I should be going somewhere. Instead I just rot in my room and think about what I could have been.

My father hates me, my mother tries to compensate for the lack of love. I look at where I grew up and I wonder how things got this bad.

I just want to be somebody. I feel like a failure.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Gonna try to drink as much as I can. Just don't feel like myself tonight. I am such a sad pathetic human being. Just to post on some incel forum for sympathy.

It's so over for me brocels.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I don't even know what to believe in anymore. I'm scared of standing against the creator when all I have been taught my whole life is that he is good.

I woke up last night and just blank spaced at my wall. Terrified of the reality that I am in.

Scared that at any moment a giant hunk of rock will come down on my room and crush me. I don't feel safe anywhere I go. I don't feel safe around my family.

I feel like I have been raped spiritually and mentally.

I used to be afraid of planes because I am afraid they will crash down on me for standing against this creator. I feel weak and frail, like I have nothing to stand on.

I have no one to talk to about how I'm feeling, so I just bottle it all up then drink and get angry and cry in my room.

Near a psychotic break. I would talk to my therapist about how angry and sad I am and I would literally begin to shake from how upset I am. I have so much built up negative energy inside me, I feel so betrayed and mistreated.

I got fucked over so hard in life. I have nothing to be grateful for. I hate everything and everyone. The only thing I love is anything that stands against this world. I'm so tired of suffering. I do not deserve this much suffering. I have suffered for so long. And it never ends.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

And my father thinks I am the bad guy. He thinks I am everything wrong with this world, meanwhile he worships the very system designed to keep us enslaved.

I feel like I am in a torture chamber designed to bring out the most suffering as possible. I don't feel free in any way. I don't feel love.

I just want to destroy and burn this fucking abomination to the ground. Everything here is wicked.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

So I will drink until I throw up, then I will drink again until I throw up, then I will drink again until eventually the bottle is empty and I am left with my dick in my hand.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

View: https://youtu.be/83gddxVpitc?si=DgVUU5332X_L0-Bq

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

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@Uggo Mongo thoughts on alice in chains?

 

[Uggo Mongo]

@Uggo Mongo thoughts on alice in chains?

Me gave before I think

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Me gave before I think

Don't understand brother

Too drunk

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I deserve better then this