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What's brutal is that, as a former risk taking jestermaxxer, I hung out with the popular kids to be used and abused as an animated object to be discarded at will.
One time I called her beautiful and she seemed really touched by it, unlike in college at a party I was dragged to, where I told a fat girl she was beautiful and she screamed and backed away with "he's about to rape me" eyes.
In senior year of HS, I asked the aforementioned foid to the prom but she rejected the offer, allegedly reluctantly, because she said yes to the Chad linebacker who was 7" taller than me. I think she knew I was going to ask her, so she quickly said yes to Chad.
My HS self mogs me today, so I would say all that really impacted my ability to date was my grossly over the top behavior, jestermaxxing, my height and skinny stature.
Though had I not played the jester flute, I probably would have been bullied.
I hung out with her many times with friends, only for her to kiss my two taller friends.
Another time we went out to spy on a hick party in the woods, only for Chad to see us hiding in the dark. He chased us for a good half a mile and then catches my friend, who was taller than me but sub5 (now married because he's 6' today) and body slams him into a rock while we all cowered behind trees in the pitch blackness of night. Chad now has a wife and kids and is an engineer.
I just remember seeing the moonlight shimmer on my friend's forehead while this carnal beast grabs him by the neck and slams him into the ground.
He was crying when we left and I could tell the girl was thinking, "why the fuck am I hanging out with these pussy losers... I want Chad."
I remember messaging her when we graduated at least 10 times and she never answered back, instead hanging out with taller better looking Chads in college and adulthood.
In any case, I dreamt about her the other day, for no good reason, and my family meets her at a cafe. How is that even possible?
She mentions to my family how she still regrets not accepting my invitation to the senior prom. Lmfao. And that she asks about me to her friends, all the time. As if they know what or where I am?
I'm a ghost, a pauper and hermitcel.
But I still have this shitty part of my brain that says "what if?"
No women would ever get with a man that makes 100 fold less than her in salary, unless he's Chad.
Anyway, weird coincidence.
Suifuel. She's single though.
I fucking hate my life, but then again, I can't deal with anyone, so even if I were to ascend, it would kill me.
One time I called her beautiful and she seemed really touched by it, unlike in college at a party I was dragged to, where I told a fat girl she was beautiful and she screamed and backed away with "he's about to rape me" eyes.
In senior year of HS, I asked the aforementioned foid to the prom but she rejected the offer, allegedly reluctantly, because she said yes to the Chad linebacker who was 7" taller than me. I think she knew I was going to ask her, so she quickly said yes to Chad.
My HS self mogs me today, so I would say all that really impacted my ability to date was my grossly over the top behavior, jestermaxxing, my height and skinny stature.
Though had I not played the jester flute, I probably would have been bullied.
I hung out with her many times with friends, only for her to kiss my two taller friends.
Another time we went out to spy on a hick party in the woods, only for Chad to see us hiding in the dark. He chased us for a good half a mile and then catches my friend, who was taller than me but sub5 (now married because he's 6' today) and body slams him into a rock while we all cowered behind trees in the pitch blackness of night. Chad now has a wife and kids and is an engineer.
I just remember seeing the moonlight shimmer on my friend's forehead while this carnal beast grabs him by the neck and slams him into the ground.
He was crying when we left and I could tell the girl was thinking, "why the fuck am I hanging out with these pussy losers... I want Chad."
I remember messaging her when we graduated at least 10 times and she never answered back, instead hanging out with taller better looking Chads in college and adulthood.
In any case, I dreamt about her the other day, for no good reason, and my family meets her at a cafe. How is that even possible?
She mentions to my family how she still regrets not accepting my invitation to the senior prom. Lmfao. And that she asks about me to her friends, all the time. As if they know what or where I am?
I'm a ghost, a pauper and hermitcel.
But I still have this shitty part of my brain that says "what if?"
No women would ever get with a man that makes 100 fold less than her in salary, unless he's Chad.
Anyway, weird coincidence.
Suifuel. She's single though.
I fucking hate my life, but then again, I can't deal with anyone, so even if I were to ascend, it would kill me.
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