I finally managed to quit weed. Today is the first day when I haven't bought weed, so I consider it a success.
Why am I making this post? I don't know. Most likely just to cope, and tell you guys about my achievement so that will help me stop craving it. I want to consider it an achievement. I am sorry for this selfish post, a lot of you will say "lol who the fuck cares about Weed, who the fuck cares about you, especially about your 'weed quitting achievement'", and I perfectly understand that, but if you are that guy who cares, feel free to read.
Why am I quitting? The simple answer is money and me wanting to get the motivation back. I have tried to quit for 5 months, every single time on Friday I would say "This is the last time", but yet I used to find any excuse to buy 5-7 grams on Saturday. I've been collecting weed bags for this exact moment, to physically see how much money I have wasted.
Almost every bag is worth £10, some are worth £20, and the pile looks a lot bigger than it is in the picture because those baggies are sort of compressed due to the pressure inside the box where I have kept them.
What about legit money comparison?
I have this payslip from my seasonal job, I've been working there since June. Since then I made that much:
BUT, how much do I really have in my bank account?
£1000 just gone like that... It is depressing for me to think that I would have had more than 4k right now if I wasn't smoking weed, and I would need only £1k for my surgery that I REALLY WANT.
How long have I been smoking? First time I smoked weed when I was 14 years old, I did it for 1 month then I quit. I then started it again when I was 16 years old, this time heavily and for real, and I managed to quit once, I had 6 months t break, and I started again when I was 18... So I've been smoking weed since I was 18, every single fucking day until today, I am 20 now.
Is weed good? YES, IT'S FUCKING GOOD, and it's the BEST cope... It really is the best cope. Your health doesn't decline, well at least it doesn't decline as much as you would be smoking cigs or drinking alcohol, I am not even talking about harder drugs(excluding drugs like lsd, shrooms and other safe drugs). You don't give a fuck about anything, you don't really give a fuck about your inceldom status, it makes you FEEL GOOD, you simply DON'T GIVE A FUCK, you just browse net without any bad mood. It's god's given, it's grown naturally, I fucking LOVE IT. Honestly, I would smoke it every single fucking day until I died only if it was legal here and I could actually grow it.. I just imagine being able to grow it, no need to buy from anyone else, and you have a lifetime supply, what a fucking life that would be, I am mirin' you Amsterdamcels, Spaincels and USAcels, I really do.
What can you expect from me right now? Less low IQ posts, me acting bit more clear-headed and me being a different Weed. Why different Weed? Because, my personality changes when I quit weed, I become more depressed, and I shit you not I switch my music taste... When I binge smoke, I really LOVE rap, but when I am on the sober streak, I switch to metal and I listen to really heavy music. Rap just doesn't give me emotions that I need, whereas metal does, I feel like a god when I headbang to metal songs, feels like letting all my emotions out.
Is weed addiction real? It depends. It depends on your situation, your social status, your genetics. Weed and inceldom combination can be both bad and good, but not at the same time. If you LDAR, I HIGHLY recommend smoking weed, but if you have hope, if you have hope for surgeries and you need MOTIVATION and to save up money, quit it. About genetics... I genetically have an addicting personality, just like my dad does! In fact, I've been smoking with my dad every day since November or so.. So it's a mental addiction. What about physical addiction? Again, genetics. Some people can quit it just like that, but for me.. Nope, I have a fucking withdrawal, a withdrawal that lasts for 3 days. What is it? I get depressive AS FUCK and I have negative thoughts as well as suicidal thoughts for those 3 days, it really feels bad mentally, mhmm what about the realy physical symptom tho, you might ask... Well, it is insomnia, I also have insomnia for those 3 days.. and the combination of suicidal thoughts and insomia is a really bad thing, feels like a fucking hell, when you lay in bed and can't sleep for shit but wanting to kill yourself every minute.
Again, I am sorry for this selfish post, this post is all about me and my "achievement", but I am very happy if you had good time reading this, and I hope I changed your mind in some way on weed.
Why am I making this post? I don't know. Most likely just to cope, and tell you guys about my achievement so that will help me stop craving it. I want to consider it an achievement. I am sorry for this selfish post, a lot of you will say "lol who the fuck cares about Weed, who the fuck cares about you, especially about your 'weed quitting achievement'", and I perfectly understand that, but if you are that guy who cares, feel free to read.
Why am I quitting? The simple answer is money and me wanting to get the motivation back. I have tried to quit for 5 months, every single time on Friday I would say "This is the last time", but yet I used to find any excuse to buy 5-7 grams on Saturday. I've been collecting weed bags for this exact moment, to physically see how much money I have wasted.
Almost every bag is worth £10, some are worth £20, and the pile looks a lot bigger than it is in the picture because those baggies are sort of compressed due to the pressure inside the box where I have kept them.
What about legit money comparison?
I have this payslip from my seasonal job, I've been working there since June. Since then I made that much:
BUT, how much do I really have in my bank account?
£1000 just gone like that... It is depressing for me to think that I would have had more than 4k right now if I wasn't smoking weed, and I would need only £1k for my surgery that I REALLY WANT.
How long have I been smoking? First time I smoked weed when I was 14 years old, I did it for 1 month then I quit. I then started it again when I was 16 years old, this time heavily and for real, and I managed to quit once, I had 6 months t break, and I started again when I was 18... So I've been smoking weed since I was 18, every single fucking day until today, I am 20 now.
Is weed good? YES, IT'S FUCKING GOOD, and it's the BEST cope... It really is the best cope. Your health doesn't decline, well at least it doesn't decline as much as you would be smoking cigs or drinking alcohol, I am not even talking about harder drugs(excluding drugs like lsd, shrooms and other safe drugs). You don't give a fuck about anything, you don't really give a fuck about your inceldom status, it makes you FEEL GOOD, you simply DON'T GIVE A FUCK, you just browse net without any bad mood. It's god's given, it's grown naturally, I fucking LOVE IT. Honestly, I would smoke it every single fucking day until I died only if it was legal here and I could actually grow it.. I just imagine being able to grow it, no need to buy from anyone else, and you have a lifetime supply, what a fucking life that would be, I am mirin' you Amsterdamcels, Spaincels and USAcels, I really do.
What can you expect from me right now? Less low IQ posts, me acting bit more clear-headed and me being a different Weed. Why different Weed? Because, my personality changes when I quit weed, I become more depressed, and I shit you not I switch my music taste... When I binge smoke, I really LOVE rap, but when I am on the sober streak, I switch to metal and I listen to really heavy music. Rap just doesn't give me emotions that I need, whereas metal does, I feel like a god when I headbang to metal songs, feels like letting all my emotions out.
Is weed addiction real? It depends. It depends on your situation, your social status, your genetics. Weed and inceldom combination can be both bad and good, but not at the same time. If you LDAR, I HIGHLY recommend smoking weed, but if you have hope, if you have hope for surgeries and you need MOTIVATION and to save up money, quit it. About genetics... I genetically have an addicting personality, just like my dad does! In fact, I've been smoking with my dad every day since November or so.. So it's a mental addiction. What about physical addiction? Again, genetics. Some people can quit it just like that, but for me.. Nope, I have a fucking withdrawal, a withdrawal that lasts for 3 days. What is it? I get depressive AS FUCK and I have negative thoughts as well as suicidal thoughts for those 3 days, it really feels bad mentally, mhmm what about the realy physical symptom tho, you might ask... Well, it is insomnia, I also have insomnia for those 3 days.. and the combination of suicidal thoughts and insomia is a really bad thing, feels like a fucking hell, when you lay in bed and can't sleep for shit but wanting to kill yourself every minute.
Again, I am sorry for this selfish post, this post is all about me and my "achievement", but I am very happy if you had good time reading this, and I hope I changed your mind in some way on weed.
