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She is the first girl in USA I liked that much . Since the b beginning of the physics class I loved her. I would pray I'd be able to talk to her . I was jealous of this guy that sat near her . They'd discuss homeworks together. At the end of the class I always try to go near her with the hope she'd ask me something. I managed to get her number. The next day we spent at least 4 hours together. Maybe 2 hours of studying and the rest talking about Spanish, French , relationship between Haitian and Dominican, voodoo...etc This white guy at the begging told us we could talk but just don't be loud . At the end he was mad and told us to never come again in the library.
It was the first time I've been this close to a woman , I was very happy . She looked so cute when she was trying to pronounce some French words. I couldn't stop watching her small lips and her big boobs. I spent a least 4 days daydreaming. I wanted to spend more time with her . We studied at the student center , 2 times . One day we were studying and she proposed me to go home . She prepared hot chocolate. I tought she liked me ( I wanted to give something back) she said she just wanted hot chocolate and I was there . It was all illusion.
I helped with any problems she had with the materials, I wanted she got good grades. I stayed late when she voicecall me for one hour , I also stayed late before the day of the exam when she video called me . At some point I used the back camera (I looked ugly) ngl
In the pictures I posted look at how she answered fast while the class hasn't ended ,the energy. In the second picture look at her energy she didn't even asked me how I did in the exam. She'll forget me before the new semester start. I was nothing to her . She pretended she was kind interested to my culture...etc
Often she would compliment me , saying how smart I am , it's crazy I have "A" in this class, I should be a TA, "I like how you answered the teacher's question" . Nothing could make her love me . No amount of solved problems, answered questions,smartness . She viewed me like a tool. I had to learn the lesson the hard way : "looks above all"
