It’s demoralizing to work my ass off full-time to come home to the lack of basic necessities that my mother should provide for her own home, and digging into my own funds I should be saving for moving out to buy basic shit. She works full-time but still can’t afford anything herself, because of her decisions to buy garbage with spare money that doesn’t help us live comfortably for 10 seconds of her personal satisfaction. Moving out will be my biggest accomplishment I longed for since turning around 17, and I know if I ever move out, she’ll just continue asking me for more money.
The biggest catalyst of this being most of my family dying when I was a young age, and her basically commandeering raising her 4 children she had for some reason from age 19-24 (lol). We actually had a stable house and stable family until people started dying off early, and that just fucked all of our stability. So honestly I don’t necessarily fully blame her fully, because nobody could see people dying relatively young.
And hence all of the health problems the males in both sides of my family has, I doubt i’ll live past 40 TBH (mostly heart problems), and I have various symptoms that indicates I have something wrong with my heart, but never got it medically checked out.
The biggest catalyst of this being most of my family dying when I was a young age, and her basically commandeering raising her 4 children she had for some reason from age 19-24 (lol). We actually had a stable house and stable family until people started dying off early, and that just fucked all of our stability. So honestly I don’t necessarily fully blame her fully, because nobody could see people dying relatively young.
And hence all of the health problems the males in both sides of my family has, I doubt i’ll live past 40 TBH (mostly heart problems), and I have various symptoms that indicates I have something wrong with my heart, but never got it medically checked out.
