Caelus
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I honestly never really thought videogame addiction was even a real thing when I was younger, only something that normies and boomers loved to overdramatize, and I wouldn’t have believed them if I hadn’t witnessed it myself.
I’ve been on vidya since I was roughly around 3 (my brother handed me down his Genesis which in hindsight, might’ve been among the worst things he’d done to me) and only recently I decided to seriously cut back on them (finals and I keep coping by thinking that they’re what ignites my shitty depressive episodes or that my source of misery and nihilism derives from them and that’s why I’m always feeling unfulfilled in life ) and the first week goes smoothly, but then the second or third week comes, and I get all drowsy and slightly shaky, extremely tired, weird aches and twitches around my arms and fingers, feel like I’m about to pass out any moment, etc. my usual insomnia doesn’t help but solidify it either.
The scariest part is, I don’t even realize what the fuck is happening or what’s wrong with me only until I decide to hit play and all of a sudden, I’m miraculously cured and every inch of my body magically heals on its own. It’s really, REALLY weird and really fucked up.
It’s unbelievable honestly. It’s like ACTUAL drugs, only much less lurid and explicit in a physical sense. I’m not even gonna go about the complete brain fog or how mentally unstable I become but to sum it up quickly: I feel disoriented and make terrible decisions and it’s like I’m mentally just not there.
Seriously, what the fuck???
I’ve been on vidya since I was roughly around 3 (my brother handed me down his Genesis which in hindsight, might’ve been among the worst things he’d done to me) and only recently I decided to seriously cut back on them (finals and I keep coping by thinking that they’re what ignites my shitty depressive episodes or that my source of misery and nihilism derives from them and that’s why I’m always feeling unfulfilled in life ) and the first week goes smoothly, but then the second or third week comes, and I get all drowsy and slightly shaky, extremely tired, weird aches and twitches around my arms and fingers, feel like I’m about to pass out any moment, etc. my usual insomnia doesn’t help but solidify it either.
The scariest part is, I don’t even realize what the fuck is happening or what’s wrong with me only until I decide to hit play and all of a sudden, I’m miraculously cured and every inch of my body magically heals on its own. It’s really, REALLY weird and really fucked up.
It’s unbelievable honestly. It’s like ACTUAL drugs, only much less lurid and explicit in a physical sense. I’m not even gonna go about the complete brain fog or how mentally unstable I become but to sum it up quickly: I feel disoriented and make terrible decisions and it’s like I’m mentally just not there.
Seriously, what the fuck???