I'm 31 reflecting about how old I am every day. How fucking old is that.
I used to love video games. I started young when my brother let me play with his gameboy and consoles. I lost my passion for gaming when I was 14 when all my friends quit playing WoW. From there on every activity I did besides jerking didn't hit the same.
Didn't really care about anything else during that time I even skipped socializing in real life because it was so addicting to meet people from other countries online. Nothing has ever ignited the passion I had for all the original titles that the video game industry is miliking the past 15 years with half assed remakes and sequels.
In my mind there is no need to chase a female relationship anymore because I lost any sex drive after consuming so much adult film material. I feel no joy passion or happyness from anything I usually do for the last 17 years now yet I continue to live this life style. But I also don't want to try anything new which is crazy because I know that I can do so much better if the chemicals in my brain would let me give the motivation.
I think I will end up like a very old lonely man on my death bed reflecting about my life and thinking to myself. This was it? Damn I wish I would have lived MY life why the fuck didn't I do something with it. Fuck my environment I was put into and the people that let me down.
I used to love video games. I started young when my brother let me play with his gameboy and consoles. I lost my passion for gaming when I was 14 when all my friends quit playing WoW. From there on every activity I did besides jerking didn't hit the same.
Didn't really care about anything else during that time I even skipped socializing in real life because it was so addicting to meet people from other countries online. Nothing has ever ignited the passion I had for all the original titles that the video game industry is miliking the past 15 years with half assed remakes and sequels.
In my mind there is no need to chase a female relationship anymore because I lost any sex drive after consuming so much adult film material. I feel no joy passion or happyness from anything I usually do for the last 17 years now yet I continue to live this life style. But I also don't want to try anything new which is crazy because I know that I can do so much better if the chemicals in my brain would let me give the motivation.
I think I will end up like a very old lonely man on my death bed reflecting about my life and thinking to myself. This was it? Damn I wish I would have lived MY life why the fuck didn't I do something with it. Fuck my environment I was put into and the people that let me down.
