I've being doing nofap for at least a month now. Thing is, I have been diagnosed with a certain prostate desease and my orgasms are always accompanied with the whole spectrum of painful sensations in the crotch. Its quite depressing on itself, I feel like I'm a 50 yo boomer who cant even get hard. I can't fap as much I want, but turns out I can't no fap either. Three days ago I conceded and coomed to a very neat jap porn (my favorite, can do nothing about it) and my semen was all fucking yellow with a small drops of the usual white. My pp hurt as always, which made me again thinking if a life so miserable even for a coomer is even worth living. That actually convinced me that in my situation no fap can be harmful and I should stop there. I took a break yesterday and today I gave my pp another go, busted THE HELL out of me (it was truly great, haven't felt like that in a longest while) and the semen was mostly white (though not as white as that of a healthy man). What can I say? I hate my life. I HAVE to fap at least once in a week, and therefore I will choose the best shit out there that makes me coom even harder. Because believe or not, the more strong orgasm I have the less painful it is. Thanks for reading and please don't be me and take care of your health.
