After middle school, high school was the worst time of my life. I was constantly surrounded by hot girls which only beat me down. I remember freshman and sophomore year Valentine’s Day I just wallowed in my basement alone because there weren’t even any girls that weren’t constantly mean to me that I liked. Junior year was very blackpilling for me. It’s when I really realized how unfair it is and how there’s legitimately nothing I could do about it. But I had gotten my job and car in junior year so I was more confident and I was able to have small talk with whatever girls I had an assigned seat next to. In science class, there was this 1 girl. She was super hot and her family had good money but most of all, she treated me like a human. She didn’t sneer at me in my face. At worst, she just didn’t talk to me all that much. This was completely foreign to me. Girls are almost never that nice to me unless they absolutely have to. I considered asking her out on Valentine’s Day. If anything, to prove that I am an incel because I knew this girl didn’t have a boyfriend because I’ve always been good at feigning nt so I had a few friends some of which were more popular than me. I decided I would ask her out. I was so nervous I don’t know why because I knew she would say no anyway. But I did ask her out, I had gotten her some random candy from work and asked her out in science class. She looked at her friend who also sat near me and laughed. She didn’t even respond to my question until she was done laughing and said that “she was good”. I was so embarrassed because one of my friends was right there too and he started laughing at me and later told me that he told me not to do it. Every once in a while I imagine what my life would’ve been like if she said yes or if I wasn’t a fat ugly short recessed chud. Maybe if we had had children our children would have gotten her looks and my intelligence because I was always naturally gifted and she was hot
