Story Update about my mental health for my .is frens

[deleted dude]

Since some people on the forum wanted me to write a follow-up of my latest chronicles of madness story, here it is (kinda, I have no energy rn) @Spooky_Heejin, @MoroccanFarmer, @LastGerman , @Sir Silentium

So I originally wanted to speak to a woman that I thought cared about me, but as most could tell, she constantly ditched me, and basically didn't want to speak to the creepy inkwell. This has been a brutal blow to my mood as of recently. I told her straight up today that I am going to a psychiatrist rn to talk about a euthanasia traject. My life has been total crap, and I don't look forward to anything. I told her straight up that no one cares about me, and that if she won't talk to me or isn't comfortable, that she should block me, cause I am done being ditched on by crappy people in my life.

My dad keeps being a total asshole to me, denying my trash voice, poor looks, autism etc. for destroying my life. I hope he dies asap, along with my whole family, so I don't have to suffer from them anymore. I am genuinely in a terrible state right now. I won't off myself or do anything crazy, but I am going mentally insane as off now. Despite my money, no one will ever treat me well, so what is the point of life?

I have no friends, nothing nada, and I also, as most people know here, have a small penis. I totally hate that bitch for ditching on me. You can't trust anyone in this world. Not that they can't do shit to me anyway, as I am going to a mental specialist anyway (to genuinely talk about assisted suicide possibilities), and I am mentally stable in the sense that I would never do anything crazy (doesn't mean that I am super depressed which is what I meant with previous chapters).

I don't know how I can cope properly rn. i would like genuine advise about that. In the meantime, I will try to play some vidya slop. and a lot more has happened, but I don't have the motivation to type it all out rn. I will tell my new story fully tomorrow, just don't got the energy for anything rn

 

[deleted dude]

Ik this is short and trash but I am genuinely defeated rn

 

[RealSchizo]

Since some people on the forum wanted me to write a follow-up of my latest chronicles of madness story, here it is (kinda, I have no energy rn) @Spooky_Heejin, @MoroccanFarmer, @LastGerman , @Sir Silentium

So I originally wanted to speak to a woman that I thought cared about me, but as most could tell, she constantly ditched me, and basically didn't want to speak to the creepy inkwell. This has been a brutal blow to my mood as of recently. I told her straight up today that I am going to a psychiatrist rn to talk about a euthanasia traject. My life has been total crap, and I don't look forward to anything. I told her straight up that no one cares about me, and that if she won't talk to me or isn't comfortable, that she should block me, cause I am done being ditched on by crappy people in my life.

My dad keeps being a total asshole to me, denying my trash voice, poor looks, autism etc. for destroying my life. I hope he dies asap, along with my whole family, so I don't have to suffer from them anymore. I am genuinely in a terrible state right now. I won't off myself or do anything crazy, but I am going mentally insane as off now. Despite my money, no one will ever treat me well, so what is the point of life?

I have no friends, nothing nada, and I also, as most people know here, have a small penis. I totally hate that bitch for ditching on me. You can't trust anyone in this world. Not that they can't do shit to me anyway, as I am going to a mental specialist anyway (to genuinely talk about assisted suicide possibilities), and I am mentally stable in the sense that I would never do anything crazy (doesn't mean that I am super depressed which is what I meant with previous chapters).

I don't know how I can cope properly rn. i would like genuine advise about that. In the meantime, I will try to play some vidya slop. and a lot more has happened, but I don't have the motivation to type it all out rn. I will tell my new story fully tomorrow, just don't got the energy for anything rn

But I care about you, though.

 

[deleted dude]

But I care about you, though.

I didn't include you in earlier threads my bad. I can include you in the new one tomorrow.

I have been feeling like total crap, and want to release the rage I have in me. In my personal circle, I have no one that cares about me, and most retards on this site dont give a crap obviously about me or others either. Most people here are worthless racist dumbass retards just crying and larping without offering any real brotherhood or love to each other. I genuinely hope some users die today or soon since i can't stand them.

 

[deleted dude]

They haven't gone through 1% of what I ever had to go through. I piss on this world. I wish stupid clown was still here. he seemed like one of the few chill guys. Shame the dude is a fucking faggot twink

 

[deleted dude]

Muh brotherhood, muh we care about each other, most users here are still pathetic foid worshippers and don't want to make each others life's better at all

 

[Pikacel]

Don’t waste time caring about women tbh

 

[Pikacel]

Women aren’t like that, only sexhavers can benefit from them

 

[deleted dude]

Idgaf about women anymore. I just want to release my pure truecel anger onto peoeple who ruined my fucking life (not commiting crimes to be clear here). I am at the brink of collapsing right now. might actually sleep soon to hope my severe depression gets relieved slightly

 

[deleted dude]

I hate this fucking world and my whole POS family. i genuinely hope the human race goes extinct

 

[RealSchizo]

I didn't include you in earlier threads my bad. I can include you in the new one tomorrow.

I have been feeling like total crap, and want to release the rage I have in me. In my personal circle, I have no one that cares about me, and most retards on this site dont give a crap obviously about me or others either. Most people here are worthless racist dumbass retards just crying and larping without offering any real brotherhood or love to each other. I genuinely hope some users die today or soon since i can't stand them.

You don't have to include me anywhere. I came here to tell you that some people care about you.

 

[Pikacel]

What happened

 

[deleted dude]

You don't have to include me anywhere. I came here to tell you that some people care about you.

No one cares about me. My life is already over at 21 never having had any friends or anyone that I could genuinely count on. Since cuck feds are on this site, i can't even vent properly without risking a visit from a fucking cucked cop who hates my entire existence only for having deathnic, subhuman dna which caused me to have a trash voice, a small dick, a framelet body, and a subhuman freak face

 

[deleted dude]

I got brutally bullied always by people or never taken seriously, for no real reason but my looks, autism and voice. meanwhile those bullies get sex, get friends, get gifts on their birthday, while every day of my life has been a lonely endless rot taking away any joy and happiness that I once felt when I was just 5 years old.

 

[Pikacel]

A lot of ppl here are like that

If ur framelet you can hop on gymcoping

 

[deleted dude]

I have autism causing me to have fucked up muscle build and genes. Idk if it would help me look more manly. Wont change anything else and my voice anyway. I hope I can put an end to this suffering once and for all

 

[RealSchizo]

No one cares about me. My life is already over at 21 never having had any friends or anyone that I could genuinely count on. Since cuck feds are on this site, i can't even vent properly without risking a visit from a fucking cucked cop who hates my entire existence only for having deathnic, subhuman dna which caused me to have a trash voice, a small dick, a framelet body, and a subhuman freak face

You can still cope in a meaningful way and I am telling you this as a deformed short freak myself. I am white, but subhuman too it's not just an ethnic struggle here, we are not immune to looking like freaks. Roping is too early for you perhaps wait a few more years or at least until you're 30, escortmaxx if possible, try something you've never done before and see what works. When shit hits the fan and your rope feelings are genuine put that energy into something. Sounds bluepilled, but how can one cope ? If you genuinely want to end I have no better advice for you.

 

[cathuluelitist]

Quench ymg thirst, ng llllngha crackers. Pluck bright naIIII mgepnafl'fhtagn epgoka ayahuasca?

 

[deleted dude]

You can still cope in a meaningful way and I am telling you this as a deformed short freak myself. I am white, but subhuman too it's not just an ethnic struggle here, we are not immune to looking like freaks. Roping is too early for you perhaps wait a few more years or at least until you're 30, escortmaxx if possible, try something you've never done before and see what works. When shit hits the fan and your rope feelings are genuine put that energy into something. Sounds bluepilled, but how can one cope ? If you genuinely want to end I have no better advice for you.

what can I do for example. I feel like I am stuck in this prison which is inescapable. What kind of things should I do according to you? I have about 20k this summer which i can spend on anything

 

[deleted dude]

Quench ymg thirst, ng llllngha crackers. Pluck bright naIIII mgepnafl'fhtagn epgoka ayahuasca?

nigga ressurected and started talking in retard language

 

[SupremeSaint]

Muh brotherhood, muh we care about each other, most users here are still pathetic foid worshippers and don't want to make each others life's better at all

TruthNuke, brotherhood never existed.

 

[deleted dude]

TruthNuke, brotherhood never existed.

I can't even have 1 friend in my life to do fun stuff with, celebrate each others birthday with, travel with etc. If i can't even have 1 irl friend then I am better off ending it all honestly, which I would never do abruptly but would do it via protocol/assisted suicide policies

 

[RealSchizo]

what can I do for example. I feel like I am stuck in this prison which is inescapable. What kind of things should I do according to you? I have about 20k this summer which i can spend on anything

I am literally broke and unable to afford myself anything good. You're in a better position than most people on this forum financially-wise.
You can AImaxx, use something like Gemini and talk about with it about anything. It helped me cope and regain my sanity. AI is unironically an amazing cope. I recommend it 100%.

 

[RotMaxx]

what can I do for example. I feel like I am stuck in this prison which is inescapable. What kind of things should I do according to you? I have about 20k this summer which i can spend on anything

damn 20k, holy shit. mogs me

 

[RotMaxx]

not that money fixes any issues, but its something at least.

 

[deleted dude]

I am literally broke and unable to afford myself anything good. You're in a better position than most people on this forum financially-wise.
You can AImaxx, use something like Gemini and talk about with it about anything. It helped me cope and regain my sanity. AI is unironically an amazing cope. I recommend it 100%.

Anything I can do with my money to get out of this mess? I talk a lot with AI but I am way too risk averse so far to take a chance on building something that generates me more money and/or a purpose. i am also not spending any dime on foid related shit since they hated me always before

 

[deleted dude]

not that money fixes any issues, but its something at least.

It barely is any money for real change tbh. I am also soaking in debt since I took out loans to go to hookers before when I was a pathetic simp cuck wanting pussy cauise I never got any before and was still rp'ed

 

[cathuluelitist]

nigga ressurected and started talking in retard language

It's my own dialect continuum of rlyehian. Do you wanna know what it translates to?

 

[RealSchizo]

Anything I can do with my money to get out of this mess? I talk a lot with AI but I am way too risk averse so far to take a chance on building something that generates me more money and/or a purpose. i am also not spending any dime on foid related shit since they hated me always before

I suggest you buying a PS5 and grinding plat trophies as it is a nice cope and keeps the demons in your head away. Gaming is good if you have time for it. 20K is a lot more than enough to buy yourself many games.

 

[deleted dude]

It's my own dialect continuum of rlyehian. Do you wanna know what it translates to?

if you want to then I can''t stop you

 

[deleted dude]

I suggest you buying a PS5 and grinding plat trophies as it is a nice cope and keeps the demons in your head away. Gaming is good if you have time for it. 20K is a lot more than enough to buy yourself many games.

My dad has the PS5 and fucking gatekeeps it. No copes for me. That fat fuck is 160 kg of pure fatness and keeps screaming like a pig every day, giving me no proper rest whatsoever. i will try to find some games though for my pc cause I need copes badly

 

[RotMaxx]

It barely is any money for real change tbh. I am also soaking in debt since I took out loans to go to hookers before when I was a pathetic simp cuck wanting pussy cauise I never got any before and was still rp'ed

unfortunately everything is centered on foid worship. Most things that you could spend your money on is either directly or indirectly going to be in the hopes of being 'normal' or a step towards a normal existence, aka a girlfriend, friends, etc. Which for multiple reasons is borderline impossible for any of us. The only copes that help are going to be solitary such as gaming, art, tv slop, etc. Basically anything that can be done solo. I barely derive pleasure from anything in life, but gaming keeps the mind occupied at least until I'm ready.

 

[deleted dude]

unfortunately everything is centered on foid worship. Most things that you could spend your money on is either directly or indirectly going to be in the hopes of being 'normal' or a step towards a normal existence, aka a girlfriend, friends, etc. Which for multiple reasons is borderline impossible for any of us. The only copes that help are going to be solitary such as gaming, art, tv slop, etc. Basically anything that can be done solo. I barely derive pleasure from anything in life, but gaming keeps the mind occupied at least until I'm ready.

What games are you playing rn, and what can and should i watch? most entertainment is kike slop nowadays which is borderline unwatchable. I only watch football since that hasn't really declined yet, and I play a few games here and there, like elder scrolls and gta

 

[cathuluelitist]

if you want to then I can''t stop you

...Quench my thirst, and bring the long crackers, did you not know of the plant of ayahuasca that is before you?

 

[deleted dude]

...Quench my thirst, and bring the long crackers, did you not know of the plant of ayahuasca that is before you?

is the plant a good remedy for incel- and freakdom?

 

[D3STRUCTI0NIST]

Wish you the best fellow brocel

 

[deleted dude]

Wish you the best fellow brocel

Thank you ig, even though nothing will make me feel better rn except a real friend alongside me, not even a gf, but basic human connection

 

[RotMaxx]

What games are you playing rn, and what can and should i watch? most entertainment is kike slop nowadays which is borderline unwatchable. I only watch football since that hasn't really declined yet, and I play a few games here and there, like elder scrolls, and gta

I don't watch any tv shows, I did watch breaking bad many years ago which was alright I guess. The only cope I currently have is games and even that is just torture a lot of the time. I force myself to try and enjoy story games but just never feel connected to them. So at the moment I'm just playing DayZ, Hollow Knight, Hunt Showdown and every now and then ER larp on GTA 5 with realistic mods. I often like playing desolate games as well like metro, stalker, etc similar to DayZ where you can just walk around and think to yourself about life and then shoot others.

 

[deleted dude]

I don't watch any tv shows, I did watch breaking bad many years ago which was alright I guess. The only cope I currently have is games and even that is just torture a lot of the time. I force myself to try and enjoy story games but just never feel connected to them. So at the moment I'm just playing DayZ, Hollow Knight, Hunt Showdown and every now and then ER larp on GTA 5 with realistic mods. I often like playing desolate games as well like metro, stalker, etc similar to DayZ where you can just walk around and think to yourself about life and then shoot others.

Will try some of those out ig for now. Got nothing better to do anyway

 

[RealSchizo]

My dad has the PS5 and fucking gatekeeps it. No copes for me. That fat fuck is 160 kg of pure fatness and keeps screaming like a pig every day, giving me no proper rest whatsoever. i will try to find some games though for my pc cause I need copes badly

brutal dadpill

 

[deleted dude]

brutal dadpill

the fat fuck might die anyway soon from all the slop and sedentary lifestyle. Would relieve my stress level a lot. Nothing would be lost, since the fucker hates me anyway

 

[cathuluelitist]

is the plant a good remedy for incel- and freakdom?

It increases activity in your sigma-1 receptors apparently, and is the only consistent cure for life that I've seen. I haven't tried it personally since I don't have enough moxie to risk getting arrested trying to brew it but more hard lined guys have and I've only observed positive results.

 

[deleted dude]

It increases activity in your sigma-1 receptors apparently, and is the only consistent cure for life that I've seen. I haven't tried it personally since I don't have enough moxie to risk getting arrested trying to brew it but more hard lined guys have and I've only observed positive results.

how expensive is it?

 

[RealSchizo]

how expensive is it?

tbh don't take anything it may fuck your brain even more. Or research it good before trying.

 

[deleted dude]

tbh don't take anything it may fuck your brain even more. Or research it good before trying.

im open to trying out new drugs to flatten the depression that I am experiencing rn. Will look into new shit cause I cant continue like this

 

[Pancakecel]

Sorry you're struggling, man. We all are, to varying degrees. At least we can talk about it here, and relate.

What is your day to day like, are you a neet, working, or in school?

 

[NonNTFailure]

Sorry to hear about this, dude. Brutal family pill + rejection. They lied to us ugly guys, togetherness can only be experienced by chad.

Everyone else below an 8 viciously and ruthlessly belittles, manipulates, and increases the suffering of others' tenfold.

Even in this forum we hardly care about each other

 

[deleted dude]

Sorry you're struggling, man. We all are, to varying degrees. At least we can talk about it here, and relate.

What is your day to day like, are you a neet, working, or in school?

I rot and LDAR every day at home, but I technically still am cucking for college. I neevr go to any classes though, since I never get taken seriously due to my autism, looks, and voice basically. Being a deathnic is a nice bonus horn-effect, these are my main flaws leading to being bullied severely, even at college.

I just rot on my pc all day, eat some slop, and occasionally go for a walk in the night when I feel like my depression has reached its ceiling. I am always amazed about the fact though that it seems to be possible that it can always get worse

 

[cathuluelitist]

how expensive is it?

300-400 but it depends on the Psychedelic Society you choose. In my home city, I've seen societies that offer ayahuasca for like 320.

 

[deleted dude]

Sorry to hear about this, dude. Brutal family pill + rejection. They lied to us ugly guys, togetherness can only be experienced by chad.

Everyone else below an 8 viciously and ruthlessly belittles, manipulates, and increases the suffering of others' tenfold.

Even in this forum we hardly care about each other

Especially if you show any minor difference in culture/opinion people immediately cope about muh white replacement and shit. If everyone had a real friend group in here and a gf no one would care about muh immigrants coming in and crime would be at an all time low. Why would people commit crimes if everyone could enjoy luxury holidays, have a nice lovely gf with kids, decent salary etc? Most crimes are done due to class/status differences