Unsaveable
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I don't know if it's because of the societal norms or that i was never thought anything about it but to me Sex and Relationships always seemed things that happened on the screen it was frankly hard for me to imagine that it was something happening all around me, of course i knew that Sex is why i was here and that it was same for everyone around me but for whatever reason i could never see Sex as something that was real, i looked at it as fiction, a made up thing, fantasy of the adults. perhaps this was my way of subconsciously coping maybe that's why for a time i convinced myself it was something that didn't happen in the real world. however! as time went on and as i got older i realised that in fact Sex isn't fiction and that it's something very real and very good (or at least that's what everyone said about it) so from that point on i began seeking it, i started to wonder if by having Sex i would change in any way, i started to get curios, i wanted to know if the blue eyed cute girl that sat beside me in class also had these thoughts.. i wondered if she maybe considered having Sex with me, or maybe she already did have Sex? these thoughts kept circulating in my head and before i knew it i was 18 i had dropped out of School and had no job or friends and no girlfriend. that's when i started to question if there was something wrong with me. that maybe the problem was in me....
Even now i sometimes ponder about it.. is it really something that's happening all around me? and yet i'm so removed from it? i... i truly don't know.. sorry if this comes off as incomprehensible rambling but i really wanted to get this off my chest and dump it somewhere.
Even now i sometimes ponder about it.. is it really something that's happening all around me? and yet i'm so removed from it? i... i truly don't know.. sorry if this comes off as incomprehensible rambling but i really wanted to get this off my chest and dump it somewhere.