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Feeshtu
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Sometimes strangers smile at me.
Such as earlier today.
I was at the store and I crossed paths with another shopper. An elderly foid.
We were both about to get the same thing.
I let her go first and she smiled at me.
But, I could not return the smile.
I don’t know why.
But, I almost never smile.
When I do smile, it is a fake smile.
Only done because the situation demanded a smile.
Usually, I just have a blank look on my face.
Expressionless.
I will smile when a foid finally kisses me.
So, I may never smile.
I don’t ask much from foids.
I don’t expect foids to worship me.
I just want some acknowledgement that I matter.
Some recognition, from foids, of the fact that I am a living person.
It is not enough to merely exist.
I need to be alive…..to feel alive.
Such as earlier today.
I was at the store and I crossed paths with another shopper. An elderly foid.
We were both about to get the same thing.
I let her go first and she smiled at me.
But, I could not return the smile.
I don’t know why.
But, I almost never smile.
When I do smile, it is a fake smile.
Only done because the situation demanded a smile.
Usually, I just have a blank look on my face.
Expressionless.
I will smile when a foid finally kisses me.
So, I may never smile.
I don’t ask much from foids.
I don’t expect foids to worship me.
I just want some acknowledgement that I matter.
Some recognition, from foids, of the fact that I am a living person.
It is not enough to merely exist.
I need to be alive…..to feel alive.