Im turning 18 soon and still a KHHV loser, I've never had one real friend in highschool, my only "real" friend decided to ghost me after switching school, we bonded really well together so I never really get why he ghosted me, I've been friendless ever since. In elementary school I was bullied hard because I was a year older than everyone else due to school's decision to held me back a grade because of my super shitty grades (I had severe social anxiety so I was basically mute, teacher had to send me to a phychiatrist and my parents was PISSED) Anyhow I decided to adopt the bluepill a year ago and did self improvements, I had so much free time I had easy success with it but to no avail I was still a loser, nothing changed, girls and guys only saw me as more desperate.
I've had a huge crush on this girl a year ago and I still do, she popped my bubble when I confessed to her and learned she had a bf, at this point a year of my dedication and self improvements was basically for nothing, I kept going because I believed I still had a chance to ascend, started taking steroids to further improve my physique and hoped that It would give me a better jawline, though I did blow up muscle wise my face became ridden with pimple and cysts and they were all over my body too, I was so disgusting I had to change clothe several times a day to prevent it from staining too much. My parents shames me for staying the house everyday and tells me I should be more like other kids (normies) and go out and have fun like a NORMAL teen.
My sister is a huge stacy and she invites her friends to our house everyday, her stacy friends always look at me with disgusts and I heard them talk behind my back with my sister on how Im such a huge incel loser and that I looked disgusting they didn't believe I was her biological brother. You IT fucks have nothing on me, I've tried everything to ascend and I've failed, "get a good personality!" I've always treated people nice, "GO TO THE GYM!" It's literally the only thing I do now. "PRACTICE HYGIENE" When I was still clean no girls gave a fuck anways either. "BE MORE SOCIAL GO TO PARTIES AND MEET PEOPLE" How can I be invited when I have no friends, how I can meet people if all of them like to make fun of me and find me disgusting? I've just been really depressed and despite some people on this forum thinking im a fakecel, I've realized the older you get the less chance you have to ascend, pass a certain age every girl's found their SO.
I've had a huge crush on this girl a year ago and I still do, she popped my bubble when I confessed to her and learned she had a bf, at this point a year of my dedication and self improvements was basically for nothing, I kept going because I believed I still had a chance to ascend, started taking steroids to further improve my physique and hoped that It would give me a better jawline, though I did blow up muscle wise my face became ridden with pimple and cysts and they were all over my body too, I was so disgusting I had to change clothe several times a day to prevent it from staining too much. My parents shames me for staying the house everyday and tells me I should be more like other kids (normies) and go out and have fun like a NORMAL teen.
My sister is a huge stacy and she invites her friends to our house everyday, her stacy friends always look at me with disgusts and I heard them talk behind my back with my sister on how Im such a huge incel loser and that I looked disgusting they didn't believe I was her biological brother. You IT fucks have nothing on me, I've tried everything to ascend and I've failed, "get a good personality!" I've always treated people nice, "GO TO THE GYM!" It's literally the only thing I do now. "PRACTICE HYGIENE" When I was still clean no girls gave a fuck anways either. "BE MORE SOCIAL GO TO PARTIES AND MEET PEOPLE" How can I be invited when I have no friends, how I can meet people if all of them like to make fun of me and find me disgusting? I've just been really depressed and despite some people on this forum thinking im a fakecel, I've realized the older you get the less chance you have to ascend, pass a certain age every girl's found their SO.
