SuicideFuel Truecel trait: You talk to yourself loudly in public to cope with being truly alone

[Jar Jar Binks]

I do this all the time, if I'm in public and around a lot of people (on public transport for example) I try to control my volume a bit more but people can still probably hear me whispering like an autist

While walking down the street I don't really control it at all and I talk to myself like I'm having a conversation with someone, I get strange looks for this pretty often

Just now I was walking past some hermano and I stepped on something that pierced my foot (like a splinter) so I said "son of a fucking nigger" to myself, at like a normal speaking voice, not yelling or screaming or anything cause I wasn't really that phased by the pain but he still gave me a look

Oh and something else just happened as I'm writing this that's relevant, I'm on the bus and there was this manlet mtn negro with a very thin ltb brunette and I started instinctively saying "coalburner, mudshark, niggerwhore" to myself and when the bus started shaking I used the opportunity to touch her ass just out of spite for that nigger and his roastie mayowhore. I'm pretty sure they heard all this and she probably realized I was touching her on purpose but the manlet wasn't going to do anything, he was tattooed but he didn't seem like the stereotypical overly aggressive nigger

I know this might seem like larp but I'm sleep deprived and depressed so I'm more low inhibition than usual, still I didn't attempt to grab her ass, I tried to be more discreet with it and just graze it and rub my hand against it

Been feeling more lonely than usual too so I've caught myself talking to myself a lot more often, and being extra unhinged from sleep deprivation probably isn't helping

I want to have my face split open with a wrench, I just want to die so I don't have to live this pathetic life anymore, this post is just a rant at this point and I don't remember the original purpose at all. I want to break down in tears and cry it all out but I physically can't bring myself to, I wanna cry so badly but I can't even force out a single tear and even if I could what would be the point? What would it change? Who would hear me silently cry and wipe my tears for me? Nobody, that's who. I'm so lonely, I feel so empty and my heart just feels like a bottomless pit at this point. I've been deprived of affection for a lifetime, I've never felt the touch of a woman and I never will. Likewise, I haven't even experienced true camaraderie and brotherhood with another man

When I was young, I was just the plaything of normies, their tool, their jester, their own personal fool. They never cared an ounce for me, no one has

I'm sorry for sperging out and ranting like this, I'm sorry for this water, useless post, I'm sorry for existing. I know you all deal with the same problems so it's egocentric and selfish to put the limelight on myself but I really can't say this to anyone in real life

I fucking hate myself, I don't belong anywhere, there's nowhere in this world for me. Except for a grave. I do enjoy some of the peaceful moments when I'm alone but the respite never lasts long enough before I'm reminded how much of a disgusting unlovable freak I am. I want it all to end, I want it all to end now. I don't have anything to live for

See you all tomorrow either way, or maybe not, we'll see.

Don't cry because it's over but don't smile because it never began either, rope because it DID begin, we were just rigged to lose and gaslit to believe we still had a chance

Fuck I'm too tired and retarded to make sense

 

[Animecel2D]

damn everyone around you must think you’re a legit schizo

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

damn everyone around you must think you’re a legit schizo

You know it's truly over when @Animecel2D takes a break from postmaxxing to tell you how fucking over it is

 

[zd60]

I feel quite similar to you, I also often talk to myself regardless of where I am at, public or in private just been something I've been doing forever don't really ever pay attention to how loud i'm being

 

[Animecel2D]

You know it's truly over when @Animecel2D takes a break from postmaxxing to tell you how fucking over it is

 

[zephyr]

Just now I was walking past some hermano and I stepped on something that pierced my foot (like a splinter) so I said "son of a fucking nigger" to myself, at like a normal speaking voice, not yelling or screaming or anything cause I wasn't really that phased by the pain but he still gave me a look

I know this might seem like larp but I'm sleep deprived and depressed so I'm more low inhibition than usual,

I wanna cry so badly but I can't even force out a single tear and even if I could what would be the point? What would it change?

rope because it DID begin, we were just rigged to lose and gaslit to believe we still had a chance

Fuck I'm too tired and retarded to make sense

This is a Super interesting Thread.

I talk to myself outloud to but normally when no one's around. I get nervous around corners.

 

[Slut_Annihilator298]

I've literally just started doing this. Been doing it since 2 or 3 months.

 

[thisgoodlife]

Talking to oneself appears to be common amongst truecels. I do as well, mumbling to myself, think aloud and verbalizing my internal thoughts.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

This is a Super interesting Thread.

Glad you found it interesting at least

I talk to myself outloud to but normally when no one's around. I get nervous around corners.

I used to talk to myself a lot as a kid too, it was especially brutal when family members would catch me doing it because it made me feel like a massive freak, in public I feel a tad bit more comfortable doing it since these are just randos

 

[scrully]

I do it a lot when I'm on the bike while doing deliveries I even do hand gestures and all. I started wearing headphones without listening to anything so people would just assume I'm calling somone.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

It helps me to relax

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

It helps me to relax

Why'd you change your avi?

 

[Glassness]

Only do this when I'm by myself tbh if I'm playing a game or something sometimes just by myself

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Why'd you change your avi?

 

[Poopless One]

I do this same shit.

My family has been trying to get me to stop it since I was a kid.

Didn't work.

 

[LastGerman]

I do this all the time, if I'm in public and around a lot of people (on public transport for example) I try to control my volume a bit more but people can still probably hear me whispering like an autist

While walking down the street I don't really control it at all and I talk to myself like I'm having a conversation with someone, I get strange looks for this pretty often

Just now I was walking past some hermano and I stepped on something that pierced my foot (like a splinter) so I said "son of a fucking nigger" to myself, at like a normal speaking voice, not yelling or screaming or anything cause I wasn't really that phased by the pain but he still gave me a look

Oh and something else just happened as I'm writing this that's relevant, I'm on the bus and there was this manlet mtn negro with a very thin ltb brunette and I started instinctively saying "coalburner, mudshark, niggerwhore" to myself and when the bus started shaking I used the opportunity to touch her ass just out of spite for that nigger and his roastie mayowhore. I'm pretty sure they heard all this and she probably realized I was touching her on purpose but the manlet wasn't going to do anything, he was tattooed but he didn't seem like the stereotypical overly aggressive nigger

I know this might seem like larp but I'm sleep deprived and depressed so I'm more low inhibition than usual, still I didn't attempt to grab her ass, I tried to be more discreet with it and just graze it and rub my hand against it

Been feeling more lonely than usual too so I've caught myself talking to myself a lot more often, and being extra unhinged from sleep deprivation probably isn't helping

I want to have my face split open with a wrench, I just want to die so I don't have to live this pathetic life anymore, this post is just a rant at this point and I don't remember the original purpose at all. I want to break down in tears and cry it all out but I physically can't bring myself to, I wanna cry so badly but I can't even force out a single tear and even if I could what would be the point? What would it change? Who would hear me silently cry and wipe my tears for me? Nobody, that's who. I'm so lonely, I feel so empty and my heart just feels like a bottomless pit at this point. I've been deprived of affection for a lifetime, I've never felt the touch of a woman and I never will. Likewise, I haven't even experienced true camaraderie and brotherhood with another man

When I was young, I was just the plaything of normies, their tool, their jester, their own personal fool. They never cared an ounce for me, no one has

I'm sorry for sperging out and ranting like this, I'm sorry for this water, useless post, I'm sorry for existing. I know you all deal with the same problems so it's egocentric and selfish to put the limelight on myself but I really can't say this to anyone in real life

I fucking hate myself, I don't belong anywhere, there's nowhere in this world for me. Except for a grave. I do enjoy some of the peaceful moments when I'm alone but the respite never lasts long enough before I'm reminded how much of a disgusting unlovable freak I am. I want it all to end, I want it all to end now. I don't have anything to live for

See you all tomorrow either way, or maybe not, we'll see.

Don't cry because it's over but don't smile because it never began either, rope because it DID begin, we were just rigged to lose and gaslit to believe we still had a chance

Fuck I'm too tired and retarded to make sense

I also sperg out. But there is no reason to cry. You just have to look down to be full of joy. When I look down, I almost have tears in my eyes.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I also sperg out. But there is no reason to cry. You just have to look down to be full of joy. When I look down, I almost have tears in my eyes.

When I look down I still feel empty

 

[LastGerman]

When I look down I still feel empty

Why? When I look down, I almost get tears in my eyes.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

Why? When I look down, I almost get tears in my eyes.

I can't use it for its intended purpose

Besides, I'm a grower and not a shower, for most of the day it probably doesn't look that different from yours, if I pull my pants down right now I won't see anything that makes me feel joy or pride

 

[boneless goblin]

I speak to myself but mostly it can't be heard by people.
Just hop on disc. if you wanna talk nigga.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I speak to myself but mostly it can't be heard by people.
Just hop on disc. if you wanna talk nigga.

Thanks man but I'm too high inhibition normally to bother people, especially people I like

 

[LastGerman]

I can't use it for its intended purpose, I can only send pictures to random foids but they wouldn't be complimenting it if they saw my face

Besides, I'm a grower and not a shower, for most of the day it probably doesn't look that different from yours, if I pull my pants down right now I won't see anything that makes me feel joy or pride

I am also not using it for the intended purpose. My pneis in general is completely useless. At least you are able to send penis pictures to females. I am also unable to do that. I am also a grower, so, it is different. You do not know what it looks like. Do not claim that we are not different. I will show it to you:

This is what my penis looks like

My penis looks like that of a boy. I am not even a man, I am merely a boy. Why is that a thing? Why did that happen? What is the purpose of it? I do not understand it. It does not make any sense. @TooSomething @starystulejarz @Spooky_Heejin @Grodd @Fed_911 @DreamCoper

incels.is

 

[boneless goblin]

Thanks man but I'm too high inhibition normally to bother people, especially people I like

we can talk man, anytime you feel comfortable.

 

[LastGerman]

Thanks man but I'm too high inhibition normally to bother people, especially people I like

I actually do not understand this. Why are you high in inihibtion? There is no reason for it. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I am also not using it for the intended purpose. My pneis in general is completely useless. At least you are able to send penis pictures to females. I am also unable to do that. I am also a grower, so, it is different. You do not know what it looks like. Do not claim that we are not different. I will show it to you:

This is what my penis looks like

My penis looks like that of a boy. I am not even a man, I am merely a boy. Why is that a thing? Why did that happen? What is the purpose of it? I do not understand it. It does not make any sense. @TooSomething @starystulejarz @Spooky_Heejin @Grodd @Fed_911 @DreamCoper

incels.is

Brutal

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I actually do not understand this. Why are you high in inihibtion? There is no reason for it. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

Upbringing I suppose, I am scared of what people will think of me

 

[Yabadadabadoo]

I actually do not understand this. Why are you high in inihibtion? There is no reason for it. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

Perhaps its not as big as they believe as men usually exagerate their size

 

[LastGerman]

Upbringing I suppose, I am scared of what people will think of me

I do not get it. There is really no reason for it.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I do not get it. There is really no reason for it.

When I am horny and hard, all my inhibition goes out the window so make of that what you will

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

Perhaps its not as big as they believe as men usually exagerate their size

I only trust what the ruler says

 

[LastGerman]

When I am horny and hard, all my inhibition goes out the window so make of that what you will

It makes sense. If I had your size, my inhibition would also be gone. I would not have any inhibition in general.

 

[theanty]

I can only send pictures to random foids but they wouldn't be complimenting it if they saw my face

Humble brag

 

[Yabadadabadoo]

I only trust what the ruler says

Do you measure bonepressed. Also how much in size?

Because unless you have a major disability you have no reason to be high inhib

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

Humble brag

LastGerman is aware of my circumstances so I feel comfortable talking to him about this, I did not want anyone else to see that message so I will edit it

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

Do you measure bonepressed. Also how much in size?

Because unless you have a major disability you have no reason to be high inhib

Yes I measure bonepressed but I have not done so since I was 15. The result I got was around 7.5 inches or so but I'm 21 now so there may have been some additional growth before puberty ended, I don't know for sure however

I don't see how inhibition correlates to penis size

 

[LastGerman]

Do you measure bonepressed. Also how much in size?

Because unless you have a major disability you have no reason to be high inhib

I just want to add. "Bonepressed" is used on Smalldickproblems and Averagedickproblems where they press the ruler hard against their pelvis. They just give themselves additional inches and length in general, that is not there.

But I also do not get where the inhibition is coming from. There is really no reason for it. Perhaps it is something else. But I really want to understand why that is. Where it is coming from.

LastGerman is aware of my circumstances so I feel comfortable talking to him about this, I did not want anyone else to see that message so I will edit it

It is all good.

 

[LastGerman]

Yes I measure bonepressed but I have not done so since I was 15. The result I got was around 7.5 inches or so but I'm 21 now so there may have been some additional growth before puberty ended, I don't know for sure however

I don't see how inhibition correlates to penis size

If I would be 15 and had a 7.5 inch penis, I would have been so happy. I would have been full of joy and vitality. You really do not see how inhibition is correlated to penis size?

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I just want to add. "Bonepressed" is used on Smalldickproblems and Averagedickproblems where they press the ruler hard against their pelvis. They just give themselves additional inches and length in general, that is not there.

I thought the idea behind it was to accommodate those who may have high body fat, they could lose weight and see those inches, no? Either way, when I measured, I did not press hard against my pelvis, only lightly because I felt no reason to press hard against it

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

If I would be 15 and had a 7.5 inch penis, I would have been so happy. I would have been full of joy and vitality. You really do not see how inhibition is correlated to penis size?

Perhaps penis size plays a role in inhibition but the dickpill does not govern every aspect of a man's mental state

 

[LastGerman]

I thought the idea behind it was to accommodate those who may have high body fat, they could lose weight and see those inches, no? Either way, when I measured, I did not press hard against my pelvis, only lightly because I felt no reason to press hard against it

Even if they lose the body fat in that area, the penis size does not increase or only very so slightly, that it is neglectable. Although, I once read a story where someone did gain 2 inches and he got big. But this seems to be rare. He always had a big penis but it was hidden.

It makes sense, that you only pressed slightly because you already knew you had a big penis by just looking at it. On the other side, men on Smalldickproblems and Averagedickproblems are using this to gain additional length, that they do not have.

 

[SwiftQuill]

I do this all the time, if I'm in public and around a lot of people (on public transport for example) I try to control my volume a bit more but people can still probably hear me whispering like an autist

While walking down the street I don't really control it at all and I talk to myself like I'm having a conversation with someone, I get strange looks for this pretty often

Just now I was walking past some hermano and I stepped on something that pierced my foot (like a splinter) so I said "son of a fucking nigger" to myself, at like a normal speaking voice, not yelling or screaming or anything cause I wasn't really that phased by the pain but he still gave me a look

Oh and something else just happened as I'm writing this that's relevant, I'm on the bus and there was this manlet mtn negro with a very thin ltb brunette and I started instinctively saying "coalburner, mudshark, niggerwhore" to myself and when the bus started shaking I used the opportunity to touch her ass just out of spite for that nigger and his roastie mayowhore. I'm pretty sure they heard all this and she probably realized I was touching her on purpose but the manlet wasn't going to do anything, he was tattooed but he didn't seem like the stereotypical overly aggressive nigger

I know this might seem like larp but I'm sleep deprived and depressed so I'm more low inhibition than usual, still I didn't attempt to grab her ass, I tried to be more discreet with it and just graze it and rub my hand against it

Been feeling more lonely than usual too so I've caught myself talking to myself a lot more often, and being extra unhinged from sleep deprivation probably isn't helping

I want to have my face split open with a wrench, I just want to die so I don't have to live this pathetic life anymore, this post is just a rant at this point and I don't remember the original purpose at all. I want to break down in tears and cry it all out but I physically can't bring myself to, I wanna cry so badly but I can't even force out a single tear and even if I could what would be the point? What would it change? Who would hear me silently cry and wipe my tears for me? Nobody, that's who. I'm so lonely, I feel so empty and my heart just feels like a bottomless pit at this point. I've been deprived of affection for a lifetime, I've never felt the touch of a woman and I never will. Likewise, I haven't even experienced true camaraderie and brotherhood with another man

When I was young, I was just the plaything of normies, their tool, their jester, their own personal fool. They never cared an ounce for me, no one has

I'm sorry for sperging out and ranting like this, I'm sorry for this water, useless post, I'm sorry for existing. I know you all deal with the same problems so it's egocentric and selfish to put the limelight on myself but I really can't say this to anyone in real life

I fucking hate myself, I don't belong anywhere, there's nowhere in this world for me. Except for a grave. I do enjoy some of the peaceful moments when I'm alone but the respite never lasts long enough before I'm reminded how much of a disgusting unlovable freak I am. I want it all to end, I want it all to end now. I don't have anything to live for

See you all tomorrow either way, or maybe not, we'll see.

Don't cry because it's over but don't smile because it never began either, rope because it DID begin, we were just rigged to lose and gaslit to believe we still had a chance

Fuck I'm too tired and retarded to make sense

Relate 100%.

Over the years I have gained the habit of ranting out loud, indoors, outdoors, in private, in public. It's a terrible habit.

I have fantasies of things I wanted to say to certain people (currently outside my life). And I rant imagining I'm speaking with them.

No schizo. I never hear voices back or see illusions. But I'm sure many strangers have seen me do this and thought I was schizo. And I hate the fact I got low inhibit and don't even care about people's perception of me. Even when I'm acting schizo I still feel invisible.

 

[LastGerman]

Perhaps penis size plays a role in inhibition but the dickpill does not govern every aspect of a man's mental state

Yes, it really does play a role. I tell you, if you had a small penis, you would be suicidal. Imagine you wake up and you have a small penis. It really does govern your mental state.

 

[SwiftQuill]

Yes, it really does play a role. I tell you, if you had a small penis, you would be suicidal. Imagine you wake up and you have a small penis. It really does govern your mental state.

I have a small dick and learned not to care. But it took a while.

 

[LastGerman]

I have a small dick and learned not to care. But it took a while.

You pretend not to care. Nobody would say the same thing about looks or height.

 

[SwiftQuill]

You pretend not to care. Nobody would say the same thing about looks or height.

I'm like meh, it works and it gives me pleasure. Besides I'd still be an incel if my dick were big. I'm mentalcel and foids think I'm a creep because of my unconscious autistic tendencies, which I can't control. Also being bald doesn't help.

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

Yes, it really does play a role. I tell you, if you had a small penis, you would be suicidal. Imagine you wake up and you have a small penis. It really does govern your mental state.

I am already suicidal even with a big penis

 

[LastGerman]

I'm like meh, it works and it gives me pleasure. Besides I'd still be an incel if my dick were big. I'm mentalcel and foids think I'm a creep because of my unconscious autistic tendencies, which I can't control. Also being bald doesn't help.

How does it give you pleasure? When I look down, I almost have tears in my eyes. If you had a big penis, you would be full of joy. The mental state does not matter. You just have to go outside show off your big penis to females and then you start to ejaculate on them.

 

[PolskiKartofel]

Relatable, I began to talk with myself firstly in my room and flat, but if I have some autistic "meltdown" I begin to talking loudly, maybe not dialogues but some weird statements like "Co za kurwy jebane" (what a fucks), "Chcą mnie zabić" (they want to kill me) and etc

 

[LastGerman]

I am already suicidal even with a big penis

I just do not know why. I am suicidal because I have a small penis. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

I just do not know why. I am suicidal because I have a small penis. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

We live in a world where you need all three, good looks, tall height and big penis to be considered a real man

Perhaps you are a handsome dickcel so you do not understand my struggles in the same way that I am an ugly dick mogger who does not understand your struggles