I've looked back and realised I had to work 2x as hard as normies, just to be of average competency. Whether it's my carpentry, manual driving or whatever else. Every new skill I try to pick up just makes me realise that fundamentally I'm a subhuman. Not just in looks, but in overall competency. The only skill I've ever had was sprinting, which is genetic so even then it's not really my "effort" or "work".
To me, this is as big as a blow as being ugly. Not only am I deemed useless by foids due to my looks, but I am even deemed by society as useless due to my subhuman incompetency.
I never got an ATAR which is needed for a university pathway in my country, so I've had to go down the tradie route, which is where the incompetencies came to the forefront. I've got a skinny build, so eg. hard labour is a no go. I'm gangly, which makes my balance bad, so eg. roofing & tiling is out. My decision making is delayed yet frenetic.
CONTEXT for the next paragraph: In high school, I was big into redpill & blackpill content. For some reason, I thought I could blend both sets of information. I was wrong, the redpill is a complete grift & it took me until I was 16-17 y/o to figure that out.
This all started because when I was a younger teen in high school, I always viewed white collar jobs as gay & fake. What I failed to realise is that the alternative, blue collar work is not for me. Not in the sense of enjoyment or satisfaction, but that genetically I am not built for it.
I want this to be a potential wake up call for lurkers & users around my age and younger, even if you're a subhuman, play to whatever genetic strength you have.
Despite the fact I'm only 18, I feel like I've made massive life decisions that are irreversible and I'm ultimately set on a life trajectory of failure & embarrassment.
To me, this is as big as a blow as being ugly. Not only am I deemed useless by foids due to my looks, but I am even deemed by society as useless due to my subhuman incompetency.
I never got an ATAR which is needed for a university pathway in my country, so I've had to go down the tradie route, which is where the incompetencies came to the forefront. I've got a skinny build, so eg. hard labour is a no go. I'm gangly, which makes my balance bad, so eg. roofing & tiling is out. My decision making is delayed yet frenetic.
CONTEXT for the next paragraph: In high school, I was big into redpill & blackpill content. For some reason, I thought I could blend both sets of information. I was wrong, the redpill is a complete grift & it took me until I was 16-17 y/o to figure that out.
This all started because when I was a younger teen in high school, I always viewed white collar jobs as gay & fake. What I failed to realise is that the alternative, blue collar work is not for me. Not in the sense of enjoyment or satisfaction, but that genetically I am not built for it.
I want this to be a potential wake up call for lurkers & users around my age and younger, even if you're a subhuman, play to whatever genetic strength you have.
Despite the fact I'm only 18, I feel like I've made massive life decisions that are irreversible and I'm ultimately set on a life trajectory of failure & embarrassment.
