I've shattered two mirrors by punching them and now my knuckles have scars on them. I started punching the sides of my head when I would look at myself in the mirror. I would get a lot of bruises and headaches that would last for days so started punching my thighs and slashing my wrists. It's not an anger, suicide, or attention thing, I'm just trying to get some kind of release and seeing the blood is relaxing and gives me something else to think about for a few moments while I remove myself from the mirror area. I still get a feeling of shock when I see myself in the mirror. It's like I'm watching a movie about a hideous subhuman, I'm so disgusted by what I see in the mirror that I don't register it as myself right away. There's still holes punched in the bathroom walls that I haven't fixed, as well as a shattered Frangelico bottle and some bloody razor blades that I just slept in the corner so my mom wouldn't step on them. Too depressed to do anything but rot until it's die time.