I have never been the greatest at forming sentences or engaging in conversations, with family or anyone in public. I have never been on a voice chat with anyone, ever. Apart from a few times where I would listen in on discord calls in random communities, but I would never speak.
Ever since I was in pre-school I have been outcasted from everyone. I would cry up until the middle of primary school whenever my mother would drop me off at school. Towards the end of high school I would just get verbally insulted, nothing really physical accept from 1 altercation where I was sent home after a boy ripped all the buttons off my shirt in year 6.
In high school, especially towards the end, I would end up in many physical altercations with pupils in my cohort, I was still have an indent in my head from being rammed into a locker. Things like this happened very regularly. I was once followed into the bathrooms after school and got dropped on my head then put in a chokehold until I blacked out. I never told my parents about any of this, the teachers knew about it yet did nothing.
I wish there was a place or a group I could be a part of in real life with people similar to me that have experienced similar issues.