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kfinuk
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I'm 18m. I'm unloveable because I'm too lustful.
I've always been lustful and horny. When I discovered porn at 12 or 13 it got worse. It's not even a conscious thing, it's an urge. When it comes I feel like an animal. When it's gone I'm normal. I want a family and a girlfriend to love, but I don't think I can ever connect with anyone honestly. Am I supposed to hide the "monster" in me forever? To live a lie?
I've thought these awful and gross things ever since I can remember. Porn wasn't the cause, it was the effect of never interacting with women. I've tried to control it with all my willpower, but I haven't succeeded yet. People say "reduce isolation" or "try to connect more," but that's exactly what I've been trying to do.
No woman would want me if she knew what I really think like. I don't think anyone would love me if they knew.
I've always been lustful and horny. When I discovered porn at 12 or 13 it got worse. It's not even a conscious thing, it's an urge. When it comes I feel like an animal. When it's gone I'm normal. I want a family and a girlfriend to love, but I don't think I can ever connect with anyone honestly. Am I supposed to hide the "monster" in me forever? To live a lie?
I've thought these awful and gross things ever since I can remember. Porn wasn't the cause, it was the effect of never interacting with women. I've tried to control it with all my willpower, but I haven't succeeded yet. People say "reduce isolation" or "try to connect more," but that's exactly what I've been trying to do.
No woman would want me if she knew what I really think like. I don't think anyone would love me if they knew.





