For some reason i woke up feeling extremely depressed, nothing changed every day is the same, but sometimes you just break under the weight of life. I wish i wasnt me, i wish i was anyone else, preferably someone with the healthier brain and easier life. I wish i was more successful, more ambitious, that i had parents that cared enough to steer me into right direction, instead i had ones that hated my guts most of the days and used me as punching bag for their own frustrations and locked me inside the house. I wish i could fall in eternal coma as death scares me. I dont think that anything could fix me, i dont think that a person can be fixed, im just deeply broken, unrepairable.
