The experience? I spent 30 entire minutes looking directly at her eyes, daydreaming about having an entire life with her while she was talking, she was fairly old 40yo maybe, but she was tall, blonde and surprisingly very smart.
There was this random "social" event in a square and I went only because they offered free snacks and free tickets for a random movie and I want to see the latest Marvelslop Thunderbolts so I said fuck it let's go I'll endure an hour of torture around people.
I didn't have any friends there but one guy that I met while buying action figures a few months ago, so after he left I just asked for cookies and this woman offered me cookies and juice (
) she was talking with some old Chad who by then was already talking with other girls so I'm sure she just wanted to be amused by me in the meantime.
anyways we start talking she's actually a very rich foid she has her own company and I was completely mesmerized by her, for the record I didn't have any foid interaction in YEARS, this shit is stronger and worse than fucking crack or meth, having a foid so close to you and making eye contact with you, she was so smart jesus christ I wanted to fuck her in every single position I could ever dream of I wanted to hold her hands and kiss her and hug her and marry her and live with her all my life.
30 minutes of pure pain sorrow and pleasure and joy, by the end I wasn't paying attention to whatever she was saying at all I wasn't even blinking my eyes hurt like shit now because I locked my eyes on hers like fucking Hannibal Lecter, memorizing every single detail of her.
and then her friends came she forgot about me in less than 5 seconds I was invisible to her, at least she gave me a handshake while saying goodbye.
Why I can't have her in my bed right now, just fucking why why why I can't have her with me.
My entire week is ruined now, all that I'll think about the whole week will be her and how nice a life with her would be, I fucking hate myself and this world.
There was this random "social" event in a square and I went only because they offered free snacks and free tickets for a random movie and I want to see the latest Marvelslop Thunderbolts so I said fuck it let's go I'll endure an hour of torture around people.
I didn't have any friends there but one guy that I met while buying action figures a few months ago, so after he left I just asked for cookies and this woman offered me cookies and juice (
) she was talking with some old Chad who by then was already talking with other girls so I'm sure she just wanted to be amused by me in the meantime.anyways we start talking she's actually a very rich foid she has her own company and I was completely mesmerized by her, for the record I didn't have any foid interaction in YEARS, this shit is stronger and worse than fucking crack or meth, having a foid so close to you and making eye contact with you, she was so smart jesus christ I wanted to fuck her in every single position I could ever dream of I wanted to hold her hands and kiss her and hug her and marry her and live with her all my life.
30 minutes of pure pain sorrow and pleasure and joy, by the end I wasn't paying attention to whatever she was saying at all I wasn't even blinking my eyes hurt like shit now because I locked my eyes on hers like fucking Hannibal Lecter, memorizing every single detail of her.
and then her friends came she forgot about me in less than 5 seconds I was invisible to her, at least she gave me a handshake while saying goodbye.
Why I can't have her in my bed right now, just fucking why why why I can't have her with me.
My entire week is ruined now, all that I'll think about the whole week will be her and how nice a life with her would be, I fucking hate myself and this world.
