grandmasterwizard
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In a sense, I'm closer to my grave than before, moving towards my doom.
On the bright side, I'm moving up in my career and working in finance. So I cope by working way harder at my job, and then in my free time I hit the gym heavily. Funny thing is, I'm even thinking about training six times a week instead of three.
At the same time, I realize there's no desire from women toward me. Even when women tell me, "Wow, you're the perfect guy , fit, don't drink or smoke, great job, you'll find somebody someday," I know it's pure gaslighting. I'm no longer so disgusting that they make a disgust face, but I'm also not attractive enough to get a date. At best, they tolerate my presence.
The crazy thing is, I'm thinking about getting into an elite university and grinding LeetCode to work at a FAANG.
On the bright side, I'm moving up in my career and working in finance. So I cope by working way harder at my job, and then in my free time I hit the gym heavily. Funny thing is, I'm even thinking about training six times a week instead of three.
At the same time, I realize there's no desire from women toward me. Even when women tell me, "Wow, you're the perfect guy , fit, don't drink or smoke, great job, you'll find somebody someday," I know it's pure gaslighting. I'm no longer so disgusting that they make a disgust face, but I'm also not attractive enough to get a date. At best, they tolerate my presence.
The crazy thing is, I'm thinking about getting into an elite university and grinding LeetCode to work at a FAANG.





