To use escorts or not?

[soft]

I am 30 years old KHHV.

I've been holding back from using escorts because I'm disgusted by the idea of other men being there before me.
I'm disgusted by the idea of putting my penis where there is other men's cum residue.
I don't want to fund whores' lives.
Losing my virginity to an escort would feel like admitting defeat. Like women are inherently more valuable than me, like I have to earn my worth while they get cherished just for existing.
It would feel like putting myself below women. No woman ever wanted to do anything with me, and I should have to pay for what other men get for free? I don't like that. It would feel cucked.
There might also be real life consequences, for example if my parents find out, they might kick me out of the house. I might get scammed or blackmailed, I might catch an STD. Prostitution is not illegal over here, but it's kind of outside the legal system, so I might get involved with bad people. The escorts themselves might spread rumors about me. All women are connected like a hive - if one knows something, they all know it. So I might get fired from my job if the news reaches the seething feminist post-wall crab bucket cock-blocking ladies at my workplace.
I would lose my fantasy of losing my virginity with another virgin. Which I know is impossible, but you know how a coping mind works.

BUT

I want to feel pussy on my dick
And this is the only way



Help me decide

 

[malby]

fleshlights are literally optimized pussies. your robo waifu will have one. go with that

 

[Call]

wait until foid robots are invented and then you will find out the feeling

 

[theblackpilledjoker]

wait until foid robots are invented and then you will find out the feeling

how long will it take man HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE

 

[yakusai]

Don't, these are all reasonable doubts.

fleshlights are literally optimized pussies. your robo waifu will have one. go with that

 

[Spice]

Yeah but would recommend grabbing some cocaine while doing so

 

[EigouKaiki ∞]

Always wear a condom, keep a low profile, and trust your own judgment. If anything feels off, don’t hesitate to walk away immediately.
Never get emotionally attached. I still have dreams about my first escort months later, I lost her contact info and still feel a lingering desperation to find her again. Don’t make that mistake. Treat them strictly as replaceable outlets for your satisfaction, nothing more.
That said, the smartest choice is to avoid the whole thing entirely. Beyond any other naughty or erotic acts, penetration with a condom is underwhelming and dulls most of the sensation.

 

[Call]

how long will it take man HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE

maybe 30 years, it all depends on when a company starts mass producing robots