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Hello. I'm 25 khhv. From Europe, not west Europe. I don't know if anyone will care to read. Honestly it is just a shitty story. Just putting my thoughts somewhere, to people who may relate. Whatever I'm going to write is going to be already old news, nothing new and just reiteration of already known things. I hope I'm not going to be banned, because people like us most likely have a lot of problems, anxiety, depression etc to name a few. That list is probably just too long. And I'm not an exception here, but I still try to maintain as positive outlook on life as I can, which could be considered blue pill thinking. Even though my entire life is just full of pain and misery.
I got inspired by Uninstall, various tinder experiments that I read here and SEA stories. Actually I didn't really do much of anything yet. I'm thinking of doing the experiment Uninstall did, still does, but I live in a small city (200k). Probably not a good idea. I just want to have fun and in a way I think it'd be, sort of.
Over the years from time to time, I'd try to approach foids on streets, malls etc. Not many and randomly. Not ever in my life I had a single gram of validation from foids. Just some worthless creep that shouldn't even exist in their peripheral vision. Needless to say it didn't lead to happiness. Generally speaking, I was completely ignored, as if I don't exist or flat out been told to "fuck off". Quit my job, saw no point to live, just couldn't kill myself. I don't have low self-esteem and I can talk to humans, even though I'm introverted and shy. Never had a single friend in my life, family doesn't care about me. Actually I'm rather angry at my parents for how shit they were, scums. I've been to psychiatrists/psychologists and they think I'm a good human being, smart, interesting, caring, etc. Also tried talking about TRP/blackpill, in a roundabout way, but still. And they all agreed, world is fucked, and you can't do nothing about it. It is all irrelevant, because it all doesn't matter. Your personality, pick up lines, game or whatever else holds no value if you're just not GL enough - you're trash. That's all there is to it.
So I ran tinder around my country and some neighbouring countries. 3-5 photos. They all shit and look ugly, some bio. Like "I like running, reading books etc". Swiped till I got my first match. And I got it! Nearly one week later my first match... Naturally, foid didn't even reply, at least to this day. Also she looked more of a male than anything else, let me tell you even Chad would be mirin' that jaw. So it took over 500 swipes to get 3+likes and 1 match. Well, it checks out. Just like irl.
Then I tried to do it in Thailand. 1 picture, rather goofy, same as I used before. No bio, only my name. Bare minimum effort. In a few hours only, 25+ likes, 10 matches and I'm all out of swipes. And most hilarious thing, the matches are actually pretty good looking, as I selectively chose the prettier foids and I'd say above my looks match.
- - - Please don't consider this as braging - - -
As if I transformed into a Chad, yet I did absolutely NOTHING different, except even lower effort. And honestly, if not for the whole race mixing thing, I'd legit consider marrying some of them, speaking of looks only here.
I messaged only two girls and both were incredibly receptive, I probably didn't even need to talk and they would have accepted going out with me. But I think the first figured out that I'm not there/fake(it is my real picture though) and stopped replying abruptly. Personality? Ye sure.
At first I tried to talk like NT, but soon after I just started to push boundaries more and more and they gave 0 fucks. She wanted to go out with me after a few sentences. Even started throwing sexual innuendos and she was totally into it, later on she was all over me and I would have gotten laid right there instantly. Depressed? Shy? Homeless? Baby murderer? (didn't go that far) I just went full beta out of joy, against instincts and logic/TRP. She doesn't give a shit. She truly wants you, no matter what I say. I was simply being myself and she completely accepted me, fully. Truly never in my life have I felt so happy and alive, validated. First time I existed to somebody as something more than an worker ant. I spent a few hours or more just chatting with her and giggling entire time like a kid.
For many people, I probably would seem like insane person after writing all this. First time in my entire life I experienced a joy of being desired, accepted and cared for, even for a little bit. I'm going tomorrow to look for a job and save money. It is just real, the JBW is all there is to it over there. Naturally I can't say anything for ethnics here. Also she wants to really go out with me and I said okay, even though I'm not there and we will never meet each other. I feel bad about this. I know that foids aren't human, but she seemed very human to me. Also don't want to be a white knight.
I can post the conversations, probably will regardless, if I don't get banned beforehand. Just need to edit out info etc, but it's very long. Not sure if people even give a fuck or even read all the way till here. I can honestly say for the first time in my life I felt happy and joyous. If this is not lifefuel, then I don't know.
I think I broke a few rules by making this entire thing, but oh well. I just wanted to share it with someone. If I do deserve ban, I'm sorry I've failed you.
I got inspired by Uninstall, various tinder experiments that I read here and SEA stories. Actually I didn't really do much of anything yet. I'm thinking of doing the experiment Uninstall did, still does, but I live in a small city (200k). Probably not a good idea. I just want to have fun and in a way I think it'd be, sort of.
Over the years from time to time, I'd try to approach foids on streets, malls etc. Not many and randomly. Not ever in my life I had a single gram of validation from foids. Just some worthless creep that shouldn't even exist in their peripheral vision. Needless to say it didn't lead to happiness. Generally speaking, I was completely ignored, as if I don't exist or flat out been told to "fuck off". Quit my job, saw no point to live, just couldn't kill myself. I don't have low self-esteem and I can talk to humans, even though I'm introverted and shy. Never had a single friend in my life, family doesn't care about me. Actually I'm rather angry at my parents for how shit they were, scums. I've been to psychiatrists/psychologists and they think I'm a good human being, smart, interesting, caring, etc. Also tried talking about TRP/blackpill, in a roundabout way, but still. And they all agreed, world is fucked, and you can't do nothing about it. It is all irrelevant, because it all doesn't matter. Your personality, pick up lines, game or whatever else holds no value if you're just not GL enough - you're trash. That's all there is to it.
So I ran tinder around my country and some neighbouring countries. 3-5 photos. They all shit and look ugly, some bio. Like "I like running, reading books etc". Swiped till I got my first match. And I got it! Nearly one week later my first match... Naturally, foid didn't even reply, at least to this day. Also she looked more of a male than anything else, let me tell you even Chad would be mirin' that jaw. So it took over 500 swipes to get 3+likes and 1 match. Well, it checks out. Just like irl.
Then I tried to do it in Thailand. 1 picture, rather goofy, same as I used before. No bio, only my name. Bare minimum effort. In a few hours only, 25+ likes, 10 matches and I'm all out of swipes. And most hilarious thing, the matches are actually pretty good looking, as I selectively chose the prettier foids and I'd say above my looks match.
- - - Please don't consider this as braging - - -
As if I transformed into a Chad, yet I did absolutely NOTHING different, except even lower effort. And honestly, if not for the whole race mixing thing, I'd legit consider marrying some of them, speaking of looks only here.
I messaged only two girls and both were incredibly receptive, I probably didn't even need to talk and they would have accepted going out with me. But I think the first figured out that I'm not there/fake(it is my real picture though) and stopped replying abruptly. Personality? Ye sure.
At first I tried to talk like NT, but soon after I just started to push boundaries more and more and they gave 0 fucks. She wanted to go out with me after a few sentences. Even started throwing sexual innuendos and she was totally into it, later on she was all over me and I would have gotten laid right there instantly. Depressed? Shy? Homeless? Baby murderer? (didn't go that far) I just went full beta out of joy, against instincts and logic/TRP. She doesn't give a shit. She truly wants you, no matter what I say. I was simply being myself and she completely accepted me, fully. Truly never in my life have I felt so happy and alive, validated. First time I existed to somebody as something more than an worker ant. I spent a few hours or more just chatting with her and giggling entire time like a kid.
For many people, I probably would seem like insane person after writing all this. First time in my entire life I experienced a joy of being desired, accepted and cared for, even for a little bit. I'm going tomorrow to look for a job and save money. It is just real, the JBW is all there is to it over there. Naturally I can't say anything for ethnics here. Also she wants to really go out with me and I said okay, even though I'm not there and we will never meet each other. I feel bad about this. I know that foids aren't human, but she seemed very human to me. Also don't want to be a white knight.
I can post the conversations, probably will regardless, if I don't get banned beforehand. Just need to edit out info etc, but it's very long. Not sure if people even give a fuck or even read all the way till here. I can honestly say for the first time in my life I felt happy and joyous. If this is not lifefuel, then I don't know.
I think I broke a few rules by making this entire thing, but oh well. I just wanted to share it with someone. If I do deserve ban, I'm sorry I've failed you.
