LDAR Time is running away

[TheJester]

I just looked at my - now banned - old reddit account and revisited a few of my posts and they do not feel like ive made them FIVE YEARS AGO. Its crazy, it feels like yesterday and yet 5 years gone by and I still feel lost, still live alone, still feel sick of society and this collapsing world.

I wanted to do something different back then but never got the chance so i went to Uni and it was just a massive waste of time, money, energy, nerves and opportunities. I cant change the past but feel to old now to look forward to a good future.

Im just 24, soon 25 and feel old but still not like an adult should. Others seem rich for some reason, some got secure jobs that pay enough to survive and buy materialistic shit, some even have children that will enter Elementary school soon and I feel like i just got out of High School

Sick seeing these NT young couples who work these shit jobs and are trapped in a awful society and blinded by Social Media and Propaganda and yet live with no care in the world. Im just thinking to myself if these "Characters" are even sentient beings. They just feel so weird, despite that im the Anomaly, they just hang around with their Apple Earbuds, Vaping or Drinking Monster Energy, aimlessly running around or spamming "like and subscribe" on random channels like its the new Cookie Clicker.

Society got so bad, my city is rotting and so are the people and yet ive gotten so old and have no perspective for anything anymore, i dont enjoy shit because if your lonely shit doesnt even matter. Video games, movies, series, art, culture, religion, SM, fitness, restaurants, sports, fishing, gardening, swimming, hiking, history yes and even porn became so dull and just lame. Distractions from reality.

I enjoy science but its limited to the average man.

I used to animate and draw but that field will be wrecked by AI in the next few years.

I rarely go shopping, even if i was a multi millionaire id likely just buy a small house with photo voltaic and an electric car and that would be it. Then id just chill, hoard tons of food, maybe build a home gym or something, maybe continue trying to get a traditional wife, Seamaxx lmao

Looksmaxxing I just do because I need to do it. Gym is also meh, I do it but lets be honest 90% of Gym guys do it to get a chick.

Overall I see time running away, the really good times will never come back. I cant buy a good childhood, i cant buy youth, i cant buy genetics, i cant buy friends, i cant buy different parents, i cant buy love, i cant buy freedom, i cant buy a Utopia.

The future is a Dystopia, a living hell for all men, even Chad cant escape it. In 20 years, a massive collapse will happen and id wish to not live to see it.

 

[Kamanbert]

Tag is lifefuel for some reason

 

[Kamanbert]

Tbh you're at that age when your youth is starting to die. You better try some hail mary kamikaze socialization shit before it's too late

 

[TheJester]

Tag is lifefuel for some reason

Changed it to LDAR

 

[Patches]

The older you get the bigger chance that your gf will be even more ran through roastoid infested with 100 types of aids from all the cock riding,
why even bother...

 

[TheJester]

Tbh you're at that age when your youth is starting to die. You better try some hail mary kamikaze socialization shit before it's too late

Doesnt work. Today i was at an open festival, it was all just teens and millenial couples with small kids.

I go out to Bars in order to meet young single girls - so far no luck.

I still regulary go to events and talk to people, some nice talks, but it never amounted to anything more.

I also used "find friends" Apps for months and i havent found a single friend.

Ive deleted Hinge and Bumble because nothing ever happened there and Tinder also seems to amount to nothing despite that i upgraded my pics with AI into Chadlite (like its basicallya differentperson lol), I just get foreigners.

Even my mother said I should Seamaxx because she knows I wont likely find any real friends anymore - not to mention almost all the friends ive ever gad betrayed me or used me, including several classmates. I jestermaxxed my whole life for other people and ended up lonely.

 

[Lonelyus]

im 24 soon 25

 

[Kamanbert]

Doesnt work. Today i was at an open festival, it was all just teens and millenial couples with small kids.

I go out to Bars in order to meet young single girls - so far no luck.

I still regulary go to events and talk to people, some nice talks, but it never amounted to anything more.

I also used "find friends" Apps for months and i havent found a single friend.

Ive deleted Hinge and Bumble because nothing ever happened there and Tinder also seems to amount to nothing despite that i upgraded my pics with AI into Chadlite (like its basicallya differentperson lol), I just get foreigners.

Even my mother said I should Seamaxx because she knows I wont likely find any real friends anymore - not to mention almost all the friends ive ever gad betrayed me or used me, including several classmates. I jestermaxxed my whole life for other people and ended up lonely.

This is brutal. Cause i admit i'm one of those motherfuckers that mostly rotted, i tried things here and there but never in a proactive way so i'm always in disbelief when i see so many guys still being friendless and incels no matter what they do. The worst is when i read that even severe hobby/study/career maxxing fall short sometimes. All that effort for nothing, mang.

 

[Ryne gosling]

Find some cope

 

[TheJester]

This is brutal. Cause i admit i'm one of those motherfuckers that mostly rotted, i tried things here and there but never in a proactive way so i'm always in disbelief when i see so many guys still being friendless and incels no matter what they do. The worst is when i read that even severe hobby/study/career maxxing fall short sometimes. All that effort for nothing, mang.

Yeah belive it or not but i was friends with everyone in the whole school back in Elementary, even in Highschool it wasnt too bad, sure my teachers bullied me into oblivion essentially creating me, but i was quite popular overall. I had several people id considered friends. I was EXTREMLY extroverted in my late teens. When I was 14 a buddy of mine wanted me to go to a fuck party where an ex-classmate, Gina, who became a huge slut was getting bang banged by lots of guys i knew, but i declined because this disgusted me, most of these dudes i had no connection to anymore anyway and Gina wasnt my friend anymore and already had a bodycount of over 100 by the age of 14.

Then they all started with drugs and i did not.

I wasnt being a "bad boy" anymore, i was the good kid. Most of my friends were annoyed by my "nice guy" behavior. At 16 i started playing a lot of video games, never did social media, i missed out on a lot of "friends" because these people were then only talking over Facebook with each other.

My grades became the best of the class and whole school eventually knew me and all the guys told other people from even other schools what a "nerd" I became. All the girls i approached then ignored me or spit on me. I became "awkward" due to not smoking, drinking or playing the Social Media game or having lost my 'Rizz' (cant remember even having that in the first place lmao)

At 17 some of my Ex friends and a bunch of dudes ive NEVER seen, invaded me in my home and threatened me to brutalize me and destroy my parents home. I barely even got these dudes out the door because i was once Best buddy with the Gang leader, my in fact "best" childhood friend - even tho he already tried to get me killed 2 times before. He went to prison btw.

I changed Highschool and made new friends, jestermaxxed a lot, but Lots of girls called me out to be a weirdo and creepy since I was regulary avoiding confrontations, at 18/19 they basically had all gf/bf except me but i wanted to get my degree first. Which i did, i was still very bluepilled despite a rather shit childhood overall.

Then i did try to get a trade - after 100s of Applications and several standarized IQ Tests, no company took me in for apprentanceship...then Corona hit. I instantly lost ALL social connection, on top of it my telephone dropped a whole 20m and was finished, i couldnt restore any data. All telephone numbers? Gone.

Then Uni life came and I became an outcast in the very first week. And within Corona i barely ever got to Uni anyway. Never met a single person for any group projects outside zoom. Also i noticed that my opportunities for a stable, good life are basically non existent. From here on out its just wageslaving till death.

Will i ever make friends again? Likely not?
Will i ever lose my virginity to anything else but an escort - what i really dont want to do? Likely not.

So? Whats the point?

 

[Kamanbert]

Yeah belive it or not but i was friends with everyone in the whole school back in Elementary, even in Highschool it wasnt too bad, sure my teachers bullied me into oblivion essentially creating me, but i was quite popular overall. I had several people id considered friends. I was EXTREMLY extroverted in my late teens. When I was 14 a buddy of mine wanted me to go to a fuck party where an ex-classmate, Gina, who became a huge slut was getting bang banged by lots of guys i knew, but i declined because this disgusted me, most of these dudes i had no connection to anymore anyway and Gina wasnt my friend anymore and already had a bodycount of over 100 by the age of 14.

Then they all started with drugs and i did not.

I wasnt being a "bad boy" anymore, i was the good kid. Most of my friends were annoyed by my "nice guy" behavior. At 16 i started playing a lot of video games, never did social media, i missed out on a lot of "friends" because these people were then only talking over Facebook with each other.

My grades became the best of the class and whole school eventually knew me and all the guys told other people from even other schools what a "nerd" I became. All the girls i approached then ignored me or spit on me. I became "awkward" due to not smoking, drinking or playing the Social Media game or having lost my 'Rizz' (cant remember even having that in the first place lmao)

At 17 some of my Ex friends and a bunch of dudes ive NEVER seen, invaded me in my home and threatened me to brutalize me and destroy my parents home. I barely even got these dudes out the door because i was once Best buddy with the Gang leader, my in fact "best" childhood friend - even tho he already tried to get me killed 2 times before. He went to prison btw.

I changed Highschool and made new friends, jestermaxxed a lot, but Lots of girls called me out to be a weirdo and creepy since I was regulary avoiding confrontations, at 18/19 they basically had all gf/bf except me but i wanted to get my degree first. Which i did, i was still very bluepilled despite a rather shit childhood overall.

Then i did try to get a trade - after 100s of Applications and several standarized IQ Tests, no company took me in for apprentanceship...then Corona hit. I instantly lost ALL social connection, on top of it my telephone dropped a whole 20m and was finished, i couldnt restore any data. All telephone numbers? Gone.

Then Uni life came and I became an outcast in the very first week. And within Corona i barely ever got to Uni anyway. Never met a single person for any group projects outside zoom. Also i noticed that my opportunities for a stable, good life are basically non existent. From here on out its just wageslaving till death.

Will i ever make friends again? Likely not?
Will i ever lose my virginity to anything else but an escort - what i really dont want to do? Likely not.

So? Whats the point?

Despite being a loner since elementary school, i feel you boyo. Because ultimately it all comes down to the fact that wether we get a good start or not, once we fuck up it's just so difficult to get back on track. Can't escape from that hole. I think back in the day it's probably foids that fixed men like us, cause most of us are still functionnal. We would just need that little helping hand, that boost to be happy. But being ugly + non nt or even just lacking social capital is a death sentence nowadays. The world doesn't need another single man that doesn't say the perfect things, or the appropriate facial expressions, etc. , when the strings are pulled. And god knows you just can't do that when you've been chronically depressed for years.

 

[allDead]

I'm 31