I hate my parents for raising me as a good person but sending me to school with savages who knew nothing but violence and crime. I figured out the thugmaxxing rule when I was 14. Started mimicking sand niggers and committed crime, I finally didn't get bullied anymore and got a lot of respect from the guys at school. I just wish I was born as a bad person, I would be living such a good life right now. I was such a good kid that the first time I ever lied was when I was 11. Literally had not ever lied about anything before that point in my life.
Anyway I didn't get bullied anymore after age 14 but the harm was already done. The nights when I don't have insomnia and can actually sleep I get nightmares about my childhood bully, either I violently murder him or he is bullying me and I wake up with a beating hard covered in sweat. I try letting go and not thinking about it but my subconscious won't let me forget about it, it has to haunt me for the rest of my life.
