Incel_Dikshit
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My life:
8:00 wake up, question my existence. Look in the mirror cry a bit inside.
8:30 take a shower do my hair wear clothes brushing my teeth etc. Think by myself if its all worth it, why do i even bother people look right through me, im basically a nobody.
9:15 go downstairs to the kitchen my mom (sometimes) asks me if i want to eat something and what (if she has to leave the house around that hour).
9:35 eating and looking at my phone, nobody sended me a message. See how all the people i know have perfect lifes: a gf, cool things, hanging out with their friend etc.
Get even more depressed.
10:15 in public, omw to school get in the train, metro and tram. Trying not to look at females. But when i do they dont even notice my existence. I feel like a beat up dog inside, nobody likes me. With my head pointed towards the ground i make my way to uni. Trying to comfort myself by thinking that they look at me (based on the view of my eye corner) (it isnt btw).
Trying to avoid tall people and chads. Trying to avoid looking at my reflections.
11:15 at uni, buy a cop of coffee. Drink it solo feel ashamed dont want to be seen drinking solo. So i drink it really fast without enjoying it.
11.30 in the lecture theather, trying to find an empty spot to sit (end of the row offcourse).
Only see people in groups sitting and talking to each other. Found an empty spot without someone next to me (5 empty chairs minimum). Just wanted to sit asap had the feeling that everyone was looking at me and talking about on how much of a creep i am.
12.30 short break between the lecture. People will stand up and i have too because they need to pass. They go to have a smoke or going to eat something. I put my earphones in and sit there lonely trying to enjoy my sandwitches (that my mother made me that day). (Every hour)
15.30 end of the lecture leave the place asap and go outside. Look around me and see that the campus is full of couples and groups of friends having fun. Felt really depressed at that moment. Frogot that i had to pee and went back inside. Bought something to eat, sat there solo in the restaurant browsing incels.is. Tried not to make eyecontact and eats as fast as i can.
17:00 I am home go to my room.
17.30 Dinner parents aksed me how my day went and i said fine. Asked if did anything fun with my friends after school. Had to make up something and said that we went eat some ice cream.
18.10 go to my room and stay there. Cry a bit while looking at the mirror. Make some homework, video games etc. Escaping reality.
This is basically my day hate it soo much every day the same. Tried to make some friend but they ghost me every time. I dont even want to live anymore.
What about ur live??? I want to know how you guys get through the day??
8:00 wake up, question my existence. Look in the mirror cry a bit inside.
8:30 take a shower do my hair wear clothes brushing my teeth etc. Think by myself if its all worth it, why do i even bother people look right through me, im basically a nobody.
9:15 go downstairs to the kitchen my mom (sometimes) asks me if i want to eat something and what (if she has to leave the house around that hour).
9:35 eating and looking at my phone, nobody sended me a message. See how all the people i know have perfect lifes: a gf, cool things, hanging out with their friend etc.
Get even more depressed.
10:15 in public, omw to school get in the train, metro and tram. Trying not to look at females. But when i do they dont even notice my existence. I feel like a beat up dog inside, nobody likes me. With my head pointed towards the ground i make my way to uni. Trying to comfort myself by thinking that they look at me (based on the view of my eye corner) (it isnt btw).
Trying to avoid tall people and chads. Trying to avoid looking at my reflections.
11:15 at uni, buy a cop of coffee. Drink it solo feel ashamed dont want to be seen drinking solo. So i drink it really fast without enjoying it.
11.30 in the lecture theather, trying to find an empty spot to sit (end of the row offcourse).
Only see people in groups sitting and talking to each other. Found an empty spot without someone next to me (5 empty chairs minimum). Just wanted to sit asap had the feeling that everyone was looking at me and talking about on how much of a creep i am.
12.30 short break between the lecture. People will stand up and i have too because they need to pass. They go to have a smoke or going to eat something. I put my earphones in and sit there lonely trying to enjoy my sandwitches (that my mother made me that day). (Every hour)
15.30 end of the lecture leave the place asap and go outside. Look around me and see that the campus is full of couples and groups of friends having fun. Felt really depressed at that moment. Frogot that i had to pee and went back inside. Bought something to eat, sat there solo in the restaurant browsing incels.is. Tried not to make eyecontact and eats as fast as i can.
17:00 I am home go to my room.
17.30 Dinner parents aksed me how my day went and i said fine. Asked if did anything fun with my friends after school. Had to make up something and said that we went eat some ice cream.
18.10 go to my room and stay there. Cry a bit while looking at the mirror. Make some homework, video games etc. Escaping reality.
This is basically my day hate it soo much every day the same. Tried to make some friend but they ghost me every time. I dont even want to live anymore.
What about ur live??? I want to know how you guys get through the day??
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