It's Over This existence we call purgatory

[LostSoulUK]

All around us we see people with loving friends and family, happily married, fancy holidays, kids, everything you need in life handed to them. For creatures like us, this game was rigged from the start. Everywhere we turn we're treated with contempt and hostility, for a while I was confused why no one acknowledges me, then I realised its because I don't fit the conventional look of a normal person. I don't fit the conventional behaviours of a normal person, reclusive my whole life, contemplating my very existence.

My nose sticks out like a beak, I'm short, depressed & socially anxious. If your perceived indifferent in anyway you're treated as such as evident in every workplace which exposes social dynamics. Ignorance speaks volumes. It's a purgatory of an existence, rotting away in our rooms on our laptop and playstation. At least we have those copes but this life is meaningless without love and acceptance. We're stronger than any fucker for this internal struggle we've endured since time began .

 

[curryboy420]

I really hate the fucking Jews I refuse to take part in this fucking gay game I am going to burn it all down with the Jews locked inside

 

[Pancakecel]

Its tiring just being stuck in this a cycle of never ending loneliness, coping through each day onto the next. I wish I could sleep forever.

I really hate the fucking Jews I refuse to take part in this fucking gay game I am going to burn it all down with the Jews locked inside

 

[Leon98]

True I am fed up with this shit existence

 

[LornaDerek]

I just want to go outside and punch Couples (Outside in GTA V)

 

[LostSoulUK]

Its tiring just being stuck in this a cycle of never ending loneliness, coping through each day onto the next. I wish I could sleep forever.

Same, we get by with copes, its our only way through it tbh. This week I've been coping hard by pre-ordering switch 2 stuff and watching the last of us

 

[poorenglishcel]

We're stronger than any fucker for this internal struggle we've endured since time began

 

[LostSoulUK]

I'm lucky I can at least rot in peace, prior to october I lived with my mum and an abusive brother. So I kept bidding consistently to move out, took me years, got offered a few crack den apartments which I refused last minute, then later last year I was offered 1 with my own front door in a peaceful area with mostly asians, they're very ignorant but I can rot at least without much hassle. I barely hear a pin drop in this area, barely even see a face outside, its essentially a square with apartments all around.

There's just 1 guy above me in the apartment above but that's it. Can hear him at times which can be annoying but mostly don't hear the fucker. The last thing u want is a tower block as they're rife with anti social issues, druggies, gangs all sorts. Having an apartment with ur own front door is the most important, trust me the last thing you want is a communal entrance on a tower block full of noisy dickheads with crack in the hallways.

Just a heads up for anyone desperate to move because believe me I was fuckin desperate after all them years living with a twisted brother. I was never self sufficient until I moved last october, took me till my fuckin mid 30s just to gain independence. I never even use to wash my clothes or anythin, now I've no choice then I air dry them on a fuckin rail which doesn't take too long. I get my rent and most bills paid from welfare about £780 total welfare income each month. Still have to dip in my savings tho for shopping because there's always something I run out of like bread an milk and kitten food, but still got some savings. Ordered a 4k tv this week and switch 2 and some games, fuck slaving my arse for a living at some corporate hell hole, had enough of being treated like nothin in those places .

 

[HONKLERedux]

I'm lucky I can at least rot in peace, prior to october I lived with my mum and an abusive brother. So I kept bidding consistently to move out, took me years, got offered a few crack den apartments which I refused last minute, then later last year I was offered 1 with my own front door in a peaceful area with mostly asians, they're very ignorant but I can rot at least without much hassle. I barely hear a pin drop in this area, barely even see a face outside, its essentially a square with apartments all around.

There's just 1 guy above me in the apartment above but that's it. Can hear him at times which can be annoying but mostly don't hear the fucker. The last thing u want is a tower block as they're rife with anti social issues, druggies, gangs all sorts. Having an apartment with ur own front door is the most important, trust me the last thing you want is a communal entrance on a tower block full of noisy dickheads with crack in the hallways.

Just a heads up for anyone desperate to move because believe me I was fuckin desperate after all them years living with a twisted brother. I was never self sufficient until I moved last october, took me till my fuckin mid 30s just to gain independence. I never even use to wash my clothes or anythin, now I've no choice then I air dry them on a fuckin rail which doesn't take too long. I get my rent and most bills paid from welfare about £780 total welfare income each month. Still have to dip in my savings tho for shopping because there's always something I run out of like bread an milk and kitten food, but still got some savings. Ordered a 4k tv this week and switch 2 and some games, fuck slaving my arse for a living at some corporate hell hole, had enough of being treated like nothin in those places .

I live in mental asylums for the past 5 years and I live right next to highway rn

shit sucks

 

[LostSoulUK]

I live in mental asylums for the past 5 years and I live right next to highway rn

shit sucks

brutal, my schizophrenic uncle is in 1 of them, he escaped but they threw him back in. I also had another uncle in late 50s who was placed in a care home since his 30s because of his schizophrenia.

I suffer with depression myself and anxiety ever since my childhood an I'm now mid 30s, this life sucks