For the past month, every time I have had a dream it has been about blowing my head off. It’s a weird feeling. I’m miserable, I’m fucking tired, and the only time I don’t feel like slitting my wrists is when I’m stagnating in front of a computer screen, killing my brain with vidya and imageboards. I study subjects I fucking hate, I go weeks on end without speaking to anyone for more than two minutes who aren’t my immediate family, and they all think I’m happy because I can’t afford to show them who I really am. I don’t see any point in leaving the house; I didn’t work hard enough to be able to study any worthwhile subjects, I’m never awake enough to exercise, I eat like shit, I alternate between sleeping for 4 hours a night and sleeping for 16, I haven’t showered in days, nothing interests me whatsoever, and I have given up making new friends and talking to girls because I know exactly how it will end each time. I’m finding it difficult to be bitter; I just can’t give a fuck anymore.
JFL are you fucking retarded, if you had said university I'd understand, but atleast finish highschool so you don't fuck up all of your prospects in life. Then afterwards you can go learn a trade. There are a lot of tradesmen that make a lot of money (Plumbers, Electricians, Etc).
I’ll probably just neet until my parents kick me out, and then I will kill myself.
If this is your retard logic then don't wait, just kill yourself now and don't burden your parents with your pathetic lifestyle choices.
I can already tell you are a privileged cunt. Nobody who has experienced any hardship would ever say anything as stupid as you've said in this entire post.
Guys like you are walking contradictions - "There's nothing I can do to break my bad habits".
Ok, kill yourself then........... oh wait, you won't, because you prefer to just complain and pat yourself on the back.
There's nobobdy forcing you to do any of the shit you described. Nobody forcing you to play games for hours, browse image boards, eat like shit, never exercise, etc.
All you are describing is literally childish mundane problems but you are trying to make it sound like it's some huge problem.
How about going hungry for a day, because your family can barely afford food.
How about depending on the schools lunch system because you don't have money to buy anything to eat.
How about walking to school and back home everyday because you have no money for transportation, and none of your parents can afford to buy a car.
Etc, etc, etc.
STFU, complaining like a bitch over shit that is completely under your control and isn't even a problem. This shit sounds ridiculous, it literally sounds like a joke to me.
Because nothing is worth trying for
Ok, then kill yourself, why are you still alive if you truly believe this shit?
