Imagine yourself right now having the life that you want.
So I put myself in that fictional scenario: I'm finally happy because I'm sleeping with my beautiful beloved and loyal wife, I finally made it, I escaped this life of misery and sorrow, and I finally found someone who understands and loves me.
But here's the issue: I wouldn't ever EVER EVER trust her, not even her own thoughts, not even if she was still a virgin when we met, I wouldn't ever, EVER trust her.
if she left for some cookies the only, the only thing that I would think about is that she's meeting with another guy.
If she grabbed her phone to reply to a message the only thing in my head would be that she's cheating on me.
Every single thing that she would be watching on the tv, I would think that she was cheating on me in her mind with the men that she was seeing.
Every second that she's out of my sight, I would think that she's laughing, kissing or having a good time with other men.
And I have reasons, REAL REASONS to believe it because there's ALWAYS, ALWAYS someone taller, someone better looking, someone more charismatic, ALWAYS, there's always someone physically BETTER THAN YOU, OR ME, OR ANYONE ELSE HERE, AND GUESS WHAT, WOMEN DONT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT YOUR PERSONALITY OR YOUR OWN SELF, THEY JUST CARE ABOUT PHYSICAL BEAUTY, MONEY AND BASIC "REGULAR" BEHAVIOR. THEY DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT YOUR IDEAS OR FEELINGS, THEY ONLY CARE IF YOU'RE TALL, RICH OR HANDSOME, THAT'S IT, AND EVEN IF YOU'RE ONE OF THESE, DOESN'T MATTER SOMEONE WHO'S ALL OF THREE CAN APPEAR AND TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM YOU IN A BLINK.
You will NEVER ever be safe, never, even if you found happiness it would hang by a thread, you can lose EVERYTHING in a single wrong minute, a wrong place or a discussion boom someone's waiting for her, the universe itself would conspire to do it and there's not a sorry motherfucking thing that we could do to stop it.
People call that insecurity, but the amount of suffering and misery that we endured for years can't just be fixed in a few months or even years, the scars are permanent.
The only way that I would trust her would be if she couldn't speak, was blind, deaf and paralyzed, only then I would trust someone.
So I put myself in that fictional scenario: I'm finally happy because I'm sleeping with my beautiful beloved and loyal wife, I finally made it, I escaped this life of misery and sorrow, and I finally found someone who understands and loves me.
But here's the issue: I wouldn't ever EVER EVER trust her, not even her own thoughts, not even if she was still a virgin when we met, I wouldn't ever, EVER trust her.
if she left for some cookies the only, the only thing that I would think about is that she's meeting with another guy.
If she grabbed her phone to reply to a message the only thing in my head would be that she's cheating on me.
Every single thing that she would be watching on the tv, I would think that she was cheating on me in her mind with the men that she was seeing.
Every second that she's out of my sight, I would think that she's laughing, kissing or having a good time with other men.
And I have reasons, REAL REASONS to believe it because there's ALWAYS, ALWAYS someone taller, someone better looking, someone more charismatic, ALWAYS, there's always someone physically BETTER THAN YOU, OR ME, OR ANYONE ELSE HERE, AND GUESS WHAT, WOMEN DONT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT YOUR PERSONALITY OR YOUR OWN SELF, THEY JUST CARE ABOUT PHYSICAL BEAUTY, MONEY AND BASIC "REGULAR" BEHAVIOR. THEY DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT YOUR IDEAS OR FEELINGS, THEY ONLY CARE IF YOU'RE TALL, RICH OR HANDSOME, THAT'S IT, AND EVEN IF YOU'RE ONE OF THESE, DOESN'T MATTER SOMEONE WHO'S ALL OF THREE CAN APPEAR AND TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM YOU IN A BLINK.
You will NEVER ever be safe, never, even if you found happiness it would hang by a thread, you can lose EVERYTHING in a single wrong minute, a wrong place or a discussion boom someone's waiting for her, the universe itself would conspire to do it and there's not a sorry motherfucking thing that we could do to stop it.
People call that insecurity, but the amount of suffering and misery that we endured for years can't just be fixed in a few months or even years, the scars are permanent.
The only way that I would trust her would be if she couldn't speak, was blind, deaf and paralyzed, only then I would trust someone.
