Eternaldarkness
This will be my last year alive
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- Feb 11, 2018
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To live a life of lonely celibacy while others get to live a life of happiness with their friends and Girlfriends.
I'm so lonely I cry nearly every night that I'll never have an active Social Life or a beautiful girlfriend to love and who will love me back.
That at sixteen I haven't kissed or held hands with a girl while those scum at my School have lost their virginity at fourteen and get to experience a girl's love and warmth.
No matter how much I go to the Gym, wear designer clothes, how much I shower, put on expensive aftershave like Giorgio Armani, women are still repulsed by me and won't even give me a chance to take them on a date and show how happy I can make them.
Literally no one cares about me, I post depressing and suicidal stuff on Facebook and no one has asked me if I was okay or anything, whenever I message people they either ignore me or log offline so they won't have to talk to me, my so called "friends" on Facebook are nothing but a bunch of lying snakes who spread rumors and lies about me behind my back, yet I would do anything to be friends with them again.
I'm such a failure, I'll never get to experience the happiness other people my age get to have because I'm ugly and have autism, my parents must be so ashamed of me, to have a son that is such a loser must be so embarrassing.
I don't want to live anymore, death is the only thing I'm looking forward to in my miserable life.
I'm so lonely I cry nearly every night that I'll never have an active Social Life or a beautiful girlfriend to love and who will love me back.
That at sixteen I haven't kissed or held hands with a girl while those scum at my School have lost their virginity at fourteen and get to experience a girl's love and warmth.
No matter how much I go to the Gym, wear designer clothes, how much I shower, put on expensive aftershave like Giorgio Armani, women are still repulsed by me and won't even give me a chance to take them on a date and show how happy I can make them.
Literally no one cares about me, I post depressing and suicidal stuff on Facebook and no one has asked me if I was okay or anything, whenever I message people they either ignore me or log offline so they won't have to talk to me, my so called "friends" on Facebook are nothing but a bunch of lying snakes who spread rumors and lies about me behind my back, yet I would do anything to be friends with them again.
I'm such a failure, I'll never get to experience the happiness other people my age get to have because I'm ugly and have autism, my parents must be so ashamed of me, to have a son that is such a loser must be so embarrassing.
I don't want to live anymore, death is the only thing I'm looking forward to in my miserable life.