When you die you cease to exist. You don't go to some other cucked after life where chad always wins as always and you get mogged eternally. You simply cease to exist, and have no more capacity to remember or care about anything.
Assuming you are retarded enough to think there is a god, JFL if you think that the same god made you suffer on earth would turn you into chad in heaven. If you prove to god you can cope with the shit you are dealt on earth, JFL if you think you will get a promotion as a sexless pathetic ugly subhuman male.
See what's funny about what you say is that because you were told that there are concepts such as heaven and hell, thus those who are good go to heaven and vice versa, is the idea that you don't like to comprehend. Sure it could be for the phsyicalist scientific evidence on it (though that field is starting to realise that we don't cease to exist, especially when things like NDE's and DMT's are as real, though I don't buy into the god loving sucking up to shit), but it really, more than ever, sounds like you don't like the idea of an after life being true because of how you were handed in this life concurrently.
Now as much as the evidence for realms beyond this place are in their infancy, this isn't to say that others who are aware of anything beyond them isn't possible, otherwise practices such as meditation and concepts such as consciousness wouldn't exist and quite frankly would make us sound like we're still monkeys that only care about physicalist materials, which would then disprove of the human's complex nature as well.
Now let me tell you about a phrase I use all the time that actually has some solid practice to it, that being "nothing lasts forever". See with that phrase it would make perfect sense to assume that life doesn't last forever and that you eventually die off, however, what if I were to tell you that dying or that your conscious death doesn't last forever either, which would then mean a reincarnation of your very consciousness would be deposited either here or in another realm of its own nature. Therefore, if such a thing were to be believed then the supposed idea of a "after life" which I would assume is the initial home for our consciousness, which we hold, is a possible place that exists, however, this exact place might not be as dandy as everyone talks about it to be and more than ever is filled with the exact ideas that everyone on this very earth displays i.e. from all the emotions, to violence, rape and torture, as well as happy couples, clean parks and friendly communities (I won't go on about the ideas part because it would stretch)
Also our death isn't necessarily a process where you are gone, instead you are quite simply just entering a space of void, almost like a sort of long sleep before you are told to get up again. Meditation in my opinion works in a similar fashion if done for long periods, and the reasoning for this is being the traumatic events that people remember from thier lives, which sounds similar to those with NDE (near death experiences) witnessing their entire life flash before their eyes and regretting their decisions which they have made.
I'll tell you two things:
1) Your consciousness is your spirit, and it overlays and controls your mind and body on the basis of the type of character you are i.e. those who are interested in pain usually have an affinity to self harm and murderours intent and vice versa. Body and mind are a mortal shell for your spirit.
2) You are here forever sadly and being in complete emptiness is another state/stance just like being in the complete fullness of this world, and you will eventually get bored of being the empty for a long time (unless you don't mind it) and choose to come into existence or not, as it's dependent on your choice whether you have more things you wish to do or do the things you've always liked to do.
