I remember being told I used to help small animals even as a small kid. I always liked these vulnerable animals, birds, butterflies. etc. I was always nice to other kids while other kids started being mean early and bullying others.
It is very sad to see that the good-looking bullies who fucked with everyone have had no obstacles in their life compared to me. I was bullied for years, ignored, used as a joke, pushed around. The attractive dude never had to have stomach cramps on the bus to school because he was nervous.
I used to hide in the bathroom during lunch while chad always had a pretty, young girl smiling at him, running her hand up his shirt, hug, smile. The happiness these dudes must feel since 12 years old.
I am taking happy pills at the moment just to try to copy that feeling of being happy. It's... brutal how much you miss out as an unattractive dude.
I feel like I am stuck at 12 years old, never progressed past that emotionally. It is essential to have a healthy relationship with your mother and of course, women.
I always had guy friends and still do. I think I am well liked by most people because I don't show my fear and anger towards women in public. I just vent online.
I really want to keep living and hoping I will find the one girl. But every year that it doesn't, I get more desperate and depressed.
Men need the touch of a woman. I remember being touched by a cute girl when I made a joke and I can still feel the soft skin and the warmth. I had so much confidence, even months later. Imagine what chad feels every single day.
I know, most people will respond with 'not reading this dude', but this is how I feel and maybe others feel so, too.
Fuck man, why has it gotten so hard? I actually had a chance in the early 2000s. Nowadays, with tinder chads-buffets, only fans making average girls millionaires, the price of pussy is higher than gold...
It is very sad to see that the good-looking bullies who fucked with everyone have had no obstacles in their life compared to me. I was bullied for years, ignored, used as a joke, pushed around. The attractive dude never had to have stomach cramps on the bus to school because he was nervous.
I used to hide in the bathroom during lunch while chad always had a pretty, young girl smiling at him, running her hand up his shirt, hug, smile. The happiness these dudes must feel since 12 years old.
I am taking happy pills at the moment just to try to copy that feeling of being happy. It's... brutal how much you miss out as an unattractive dude.
I feel like I am stuck at 12 years old, never progressed past that emotionally. It is essential to have a healthy relationship with your mother and of course, women.
I always had guy friends and still do. I think I am well liked by most people because I don't show my fear and anger towards women in public. I just vent online.
I really want to keep living and hoping I will find the one girl. But every year that it doesn't, I get more desperate and depressed.
Men need the touch of a woman. I remember being touched by a cute girl when I made a joke and I can still feel the soft skin and the warmth. I had so much confidence, even months later. Imagine what chad feels every single day.
I know, most people will respond with 'not reading this dude', but this is how I feel and maybe others feel so, too.
Fuck man, why has it gotten so hard? I actually had a chance in the early 2000s. Nowadays, with tinder chads-buffets, only fans making average girls millionaires, the price of pussy is higher than gold...
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