When i was younger it was incredibly easy to see i was divergant, i used to walk on my toes, make noises reapet any phrases i thought were funny over and over. this pushed people away from me and annoyed my family. I was insulted so much for these things i stopped it, at least in public. but now i am so stiff and awkward, whenever i walk or stand still people look at me odd. no matter what i do people see right through me. They sometimes put on a strange act, they treat me like i have a disability or as if i'm a child. They give me fake smiles, avoid me like they can and speak to me in such a strange way. I can see that the ones who choose to go out of their way to interact with me do it to seem virtious, like they are saving from being the social outcast. this isn't very genuine of them though. they aren't actually interested in me, they dislike me and look down on me. If i try to bond with them, as i often have tried, it really goes anywhere, they commonly drop the act and signal they want nothing to do with me after a while, the disdain is so painfully obvious, now that i look back at it.
