Discussion the university dilemma i’m facing

[bbwqs_v]

when i was in highschool, i spent all my lunch breaks in the library alone coz i didn’t have friends to hang out with. being on the autism spectrum & being unattractive made me despise people for the unfair treatment i experienced, clinging onto education as my only hope & last resort was the only thing i could do.

fast forward to exams, then ppl suddenly became my friends and started asking me to teach them & solve questions for them.

now im uni and it’s the same shit
i planned to coast through uni friendless but i thought it’s crucial i developed the most basic social networking skills for my future, and i happened to find myself in a circle of normies by pure luck of where i sat down on the first day. now they’ve noticed that im outperforming them academically and they’re always asking me how to do the assignments & basically spoonfeed them.

what’s even the point of friends in uni? it’s all just a function of utility & transactional value. there’s no incels to bond with irl, even if there were, they’d probably be too high inhib & have a similar array of problems socialising that even if we both wanted to, we’re more likely to end up further apart coz we both don’t know how to communicate. i’d like to befriend a male friend who’s similar to me but they’re nowhere to be found. no blackpilled autistic studycel.

but i guess it’s not that bad, studymaxxing is kinda comfy. better than ldar neeting. i fucking hate people though

 

[Fallenleaves]

I haven't been going for almost 3 weeks now

 

[bbwqs_v]

I haven't been going for almost 3 weeks now

why

 

[Fallenleaves]

why

Ldared too much due to my eczema induced depression, I wake up at 5 pm everyday now

 

[bbwqs_v]

it made me realise that life is just going to get more brutal from here onwards, especially when i enter the workforce. i basically have no looks, no nepotism, no social leverage i can use, all i have will be my educational qualifications & brain. i doubt i will survive in the corporate world that’s rife with office politics

 

[bbwqs_v]

Ldared too much due to my eczema induced depression, I wake up at 5 pm everyday now

then wont u fail ur classes and potentially drop out?

 

[Fallenleaves]

then wont u fail ur classes and potentially drop out?

I'm failing most of my classes

 

[LeFrenchCel]

You're just too smart to fall for this

 

[bbwqs_v]

You're just too smart to fall for this

i dont understand

 

[bbwqs_v]

I'm failing most of my classes

so are the consequences not concerning

 

[Fallenleaves]

so are the consequences not concerning

I have to return soon

 

[LeFrenchCel]

i dont understand

They want to talk to you only bc they're lazy dumbasses who want good grades by doing nothing, and they think that by being nice to you, you'll accept to help them despite having ignored you most of the time.

 

[bbwqs_v]

They want to talk to you only bc they're lazy dumbasses who want good grades by doing nothing, and they think that by being nice to you, you'll accept to help them despite having ignored you most of the time.

i understand now. it explains why smart ppl conceal their hardworking efforts and appear dumb to fit in with the masses. i thought i would meet likeminded students who would be as stimulated as i am by the course material but the ones i’ve met are only looking to get by and they don’t seem as engaged in the material as i am, if i knew this earlier i would’ve just pretended to be stupid. seems like it confirms to me again that friends are just a myth, especially as one ages. everyone just wants to fulfil their own goals, i find it even more disgusting when they mask their behaviour implicitly rather than just stating what it is they want straightforwardly.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

i understand now. it explains why smart ppl conceal their hardworking efforts and appear dumb to fit in with the masses. i thought i would meet likeminded students who would be as stimulated as i am by the course material but the ones i’ve met are only looking to get by and they don’t seem as engaged in the material as i am, if i knew this earlier i would’ve just pretended to be stupid. seems like it confirms to me again that friends are just a myth, especially as one ages. everyone just wants to fulfil their own goals, i find it even more disgusting when they mask their behaviour implicitly rather than just stating what it is they want straightforwardly.

Agree, ppl are stupid and whatever efforts you make to try to fit in, they'll judge you by your looks.

 

[bbwqs_v]

I have to return soon

 

[bbwqs_v]

Agree, ppl are stupid and whatever efforts you make to try to fit in, they'll judge you by your looks.

i had a lab experiment class today, pretty foid asks male TA “can you help & teach me, i dont understand,” the TA says yes and goes to help her, by the end of the class the most subhuman looking guys are left scrambling to get their experiment done while everyone else already left, i’d say this is a clear example of the matthew effect. subhumans covertly get less help from TAs coz of lookism, they get worse grades, etc etc snowball effect

 

[LeFrenchCel]

i had a lab experiment class today, pretty foid asks male TA “can you help & teach me, i dont understand,” the TA says yes and goes to help her, by the end of the class the most subhuman looking guys are left scrambling to get their experiment done while everyone else already left, i’d say this is a clear example of the matthew effect. subhumans covertly get less help from TAs coz of lookism, they get worse grades, etc etc snowball effect

Brutal af, another proof that the blackpill is real and is everywhere.

 

[bbwqs_v]

You must be fairly intelligent as you seem aware that all you can do is continue to live and strive towards academic prosperity.

my peers in highschool have already figured out the game of life while i was still behind them in every way possible, they come from privileged high income families with large networking connections to all the top firms and most of them are now studying abroad in top ranking universities while i rot at home, at least my parents sent me to a school where i got a taste of how privileged these guys are so i know my place in society. everyday my brain spontaneously replays past memories and i realise how intelligent my peers were while i was clueless. they’ve got nepotism, social skills, looks, money, iq, like u only really need 2 from that list, ive only got my subpar iq to rely on

 

[bbwqs_v]

my peers in highschool have already figured out the game of life while i was still behind them in every way possible, they come from privileged high income families with large networking connections to all the top firms and most of them are now studying abroad in top ranking universities while i rot at home, at least my parents sent me to a school where i got a taste of how privileged these guys are so i know my place in society. everyday my brain spontaneously replays past memories and i realise how intelligent my peers were while i was clueless. they’ve got nepotism, social skills, looks, money, iq, like u only really need 2 from that list, ive only got my subpar iq to rely on

but relative to the majority i guess im ahead of the curve a little, which is a good thing

 

[ilieknothing]

Ask a foid for sex in exchange for help

 

[zunzun8888]

Your life is quite similar to mine. I can feel you. I used to studymaxx in school and uni. I am from middle-income family while classmates were from privilege family. While my family was overprotective and kept me at home to study, those jock brute classmates with shitty grade and monkey brain were allowed to party and spend money and yes people and girls loved them. They were rich yet I expected them to fail later in life.

Classmates only cared my existence for only academic purpose. They never invited me to party or any social event. After graduate, those classmates easily found a job through their family social connection or did not have to find a job as they had a position as the vice president in their family business while I struggled sending resume and prayed to get a reply from the employer. You will start to realize that life has no fairness soon. I fucking hate it.

 

[bbwqs_v]

Your life is quite similar to mine. I can feel you. I used to studymaxx in school and uni. I am from middle-income family while classmates were from privilege family. While my family was overprotective and kept me at home to study, those jock brute classmates with shitty grade and monkey brain were allowed to party and spend money and yes people and girls loved them. They were rich yet I expected them to fail later in life.

Classmates only cared my existence for only academic purpose. They never invited me to party or any social event. After graduate, those classmates easily found a job through their family social connection or did not have to find a job as they had a position as the vice president in their family business while I struggled sending resume and prayed to get a reply from the employer. You will start to realize that life has no fairness soon. I fucking hate it.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

You must be fairly intelligent as you seem aware that all you can do is continue to live and strive towards academic prosperity.

Re: loleris, why did you have to drop out. AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145503566Saturday, September 06, 2014 5:43 PM CDT Well, it was his decision after-all, if he decided to simply throw away his remaining duration of academic learning then that's his choice and his consequence, whether positive or negative.

Re: wat should i do when im an adult ot AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145805761Wednesday, September 10, 2014 7:27 PM CDT Don't allow that to discourage you, there's plenty of other career options that you may both enjoy and will benefit your health, you still have plenty of years left to decide, think positively instead of negatively and focus on academic work as it will more then likely help you decide on a career.

Re: Mikhail Kalashnikov is sort of an inspiration to me AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145925417Friday, September 12, 2014 6:38 PM CDT Simply because someone has a minimal amount of "Academic Education" doesn't necessarily mean they don't have any education in other areas, there's plenty of people who created amazing concepts which are widely used on a modern basis that had a very minimal amount of education of that kind.

Re: I hate Mondays. AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146108963Monday, September 15, 2014 12:12 AM CDT "Why do I need to learn things that I'm never going to use in the long run" You'll use a good majority of the "Academic" information that you acquire, either knowingly or unknowingly.

Re: Highschool sucks my AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146113776Monday, September 15, 2014 5:02 AM CDT The "Academic" information you acquire will solidify and simply many concepts that you learn later, whether you realize it immediately or not.

Re: [ Content Deleted ] AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146177803Tuesday, September 16, 2014 6:22 AM CDT The "Academic" information you acquire from "School" will act as a structure for information you acquire later.

Re: i think ill go to flight school instead of college AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146354320Friday, September 19, 2014 12:24 AM CDT Well, It's your choice after-all. If you really want to manipulate "Aerodynamics" via flying a plane, I would suggest trying to accomplish your goal as long as the circumstances allow you to, I would also suggest focusing on "Academic" information before you become too focused on it however.

Re: extremekorkscrew & br0bb are gone

AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#150451129Wednesday, November 26, 2014 6:44 AM CST "Going to school isn't much of a life." "Academic Knowledge" provides the fundamental building-blocks to develop a network of skills necessary in order to accurately utilize and manage the instability of the "Employment Market", It's certainly a beneficial service for minors that are capable.

Re: white girls

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#150974152Tuesday, December 02, 2014 4:46 PM CST "seeing them walk by, knowing that they will never love me" Why are you concerned with attempting to pursue insignificant relationships based on hormonal impulsion when you could focus on your academic priorities?

Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#154373728Wednesday, January 21, 2015 11:07 AM CST "you could of just not got involved in the first place? im pretty sure the only reason you started bagging out dropouts in the first place was because you expected everyone to agree with you. then its our fault for having our own opinions and that we are being hypocritical when in reality the people who disagree with you dont care about ragebull whatsoever. (me included)" It's highly unlikely that this individual's academic knowledge is the reason behind why he's being insulted. The majority of the user's insulting him have an extensive vendetta against the individual and will likely utilize almost any opportunity they're capable of grasping to insult or otherwise convince other users to agree with them in an attempt to appear superior to the individual. This type of behavior is just as psychologically concerning as the behavior occasionally exhibited by the individual themselves.

 

[bbwqs_v]

Does the good outweigh the bad?

it doesnt matter in the long run coz i wont have the necessary social skills to adapt in the workplace, unless i can get a job that doesn't require any socialisation. i should really get psychologically tested for autism so it can be used in future employment

 

[bbwqs_v]

Re: loleris, why did you have to drop out. AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145503566Saturday, September 06, 2014 5:43 PM CDT Well, it was his decision after-all, if he decided to simply throw away his remaining duration of academic learning then that's his choice and his consequence, whether positive or negative.

Re: wat should i do when im an adult ot AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145805761Wednesday, September 10, 2014 7:27 PM CDT Don't allow that to discourage you, there's plenty of other career options that you may both enjoy and will benefit your health, you still have plenty of years left to decide, think positively instead of negatively and focus on academic work as it will more then likely help you decide on a career.

Re: Mikhail Kalashnikov is sort of an inspiration to me AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #145925417Friday, September 12, 2014 6:38 PM CDT Simply because someone has a minimal amount of "Academic Education" doesn't necessarily mean they don't have any education in other areas, there's plenty of people who created amazing concepts which are widely used on a modern basis that had a very minimal amount of education of that kind.

Re: I hate Mondays. AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146108963Monday, September 15, 2014 12:12 AM CDT "Why do I need to learn things that I'm never going to use in the long run" You'll use a good majority of the "Academic" information that you acquire, either knowingly or unknowingly.

Re: Highschool sucks my AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146113776Monday, September 15, 2014 5:02 AM CDT The "Academic" information you acquire will solidify and simply many concepts that you learn later, whether you realize it immediately or not.

Re: [ Content Deleted ] AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146177803Tuesday, September 16, 2014 6:22 AM CDT The "Academic" information you acquire from "School" will act as a structure for information you acquire later.

Re: i think ill go to flight school instead of college AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332 #146354320Friday, September 19, 2014 12:24 AM CDT Well, It's your choice after-all. If you really want to manipulate "Aerodynamics" via flying a plane, I would suggest trying to accomplish your goal as long as the circumstances allow you to, I would also suggest focusing on "Academic" information before you become too focused on it however.

Re: extremekorkscrew & br0bb are gone

AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#150451129Wednesday, November 26, 2014 6:44 AM CST "Going to school isn't much of a life." "Academic Knowledge" provides the fundamental building-blocks to develop a network of skills necessary in order to accurately utilize and manage the instability of the "Employment Market", It's certainly a beneficial service for minors that are capable.

Re: white girls

AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#150974152Tuesday, December 02, 2014 4:46 PM CST "seeing them walk by, knowing that they will never love me" Why are you concerned with attempting to pursue insignificant relationships based on hormonal impulsion when you could focus on your academic priorities?

Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#154373728Wednesday, January 21, 2015 11:07 AM CST "you could of just not got involved in the first place? im pretty sure the only reason you started bagging out dropouts in the first place was because you expected everyone to agree with you. then its our fault for having our own opinions and that we are being hypocritical when in reality the people who disagree with you dont care about ragebull whatsoever. (me included)" It's highly unlikely that this individual's academic knowledge is the reason behind why he's being insulted. The majority of the user's insulting him have an extensive vendetta against the individual and will likely utilize almost any opportunity they're capable of grasping to insult or otherwise convince other users to agree with them in an attempt to appear superior to the individual. This type of behavior is just as psychologically concerning as the behavior occasionally exhibited by the individual themselves.

well ive switched from med sch to business and back to science now, i hope to study genetics / evopsych coz i am stuck in a permanent cycle of blackpill overdose ! idc if i make lots of money, as long as i can barely survive, i think i will be content just being able to past time doing this thing that i think will be purposeful to me in the long run, not sure how true it is that academics is that important, i guess i'll find out firsthand when i prepare to join the workforce

 

[bbwqs_v]

IT position?

not high iq enough for maths physics comp sci, i want to work in a lab

 

[bbwqs_v]

You must be well-learned, how long have you been in school?

i am not that well-learned, i only spent 6 months each in med sch & business, but wasted 2 years ldar neeting waiting for intake dates, im only a few weeks into my science undergrad course

Doesn't lab work involve mathematics?

yeah but it's not as challenging as a math's degree

 

[bbwqs_v]

Goodluck, hopefully you don't stay on the forum.

wym bruh this forum is my home

 

[Sennacherib]

Only fakecels go to university

 

[bbwqs_v]

Only fakecels go to university

fakecel trait this, fakecel trait that, at the end of the day it's just incels expressing their frustration towards other incels. for those who truly believe that all men who go to uni are fakecels (i doubt many actually believe this), you mean to tell me that every guy in university is able to have sex? or to be desired romantically/sexually? jfl at you all who regurgitate this 10iq sentiment about fakecels, incels, truecels having arbitrary XYZ traits.

i've finally realised my uni incel fate, the only value i am able to provide for society is my hard work & perhaps slightly above average intelligence. almost all of my social interactions can be boiled down to people just asking me for help on how to do this question, or that question, it just shows that all my value as a person lies in the extent to which i can benefit them.

i hate to think that every human interaction is purely a transaction of utility or value, it's either one-sided or mutual, the only time in which it's not transactional is if the other person genuinely stands to gain nothing and/or receives unfavourable or negative outcomes by choosing to engage in the interaction. it's why kindhearted people always get taken advantaged of and selfish/self-centered people tend to fare better. there is nothing to gain from being nice, and all the more to lose from being nice.

when i observe the actions & behaviours of others around me, it's like everyone is trying to be nice but their actions are cunning & sneaky. here's one phenomenon i observed, people asking others to share their notes and resources for the greater good of everyone. this will never work because there are always free loaders who just take & never provide anything of value, there is no incentive to share notes or help. the only way i can ever see this working out is if the people sharing notes are similar in academic performance, so both of them can stimulate each other to improve.

another thing i've observed at the very first day of uni is that there are a lot more attractive females than attractive males, and there are also more females than males. this creates a problem for girls as they will quickly realise that there are close to zero hot/cute/attractive guys in their classes, a tragedy & disappointment. i was pleased to know that i was correct in my observations as i've asked girls if they shared the same observations as i have, and all of them agreed. i think it was about 3-4 girls, but i hope to ask more in the future. the way they responded clearly indicated that there are just no attractive guys on campus. when i brought it up, they reacted as if i truly felt their pain, their eyes lit up and widened. it's like they commended me for being able to understand the female gaze & point out their issues. lmao

this begs the question, where are all the hot/cute/attractive men? why are there only attractive females?

it sounds absurd to think that the dating inequality has affected both men & women's ability to accurately find two people, and pair them on the condition that they are as looksmatched as possible. i think the insanely hypergamous female dating expectations have unknowingly slipped into everyone's mind. these days, girls are seen without any men, if there is a man, he is chad. chad usually hangs out with other chads, or he is with a girl, or a flock of girls.

i think everyone has set this as their default expectation without knowing it, because it's the brutal reality and it's what we see around us, yet they do not know how unequal the dating market is.

the true looksmatched dating market will have an average male being able to pair with an average female, yet we see the average male living out his incel cinematic universe and the average female wondering where chad is, not even perceiving the average male for a second. just imagine, these girls do not even perceive the existence of average men in the slightest.

we live in a world where our genetic influence dictates our fate, more or less within acceptable accuracies depending on how you choose to describe it.

why can't reality have been a world of only winners? why couldn't the universe have been created/made or have come about in a way that made every conscious being a master of their fate? we're just prisoners to our genetic jail cell, destined to live out its written code.

 

[bbwqs_v]

i try to not involve looks or genetically determined traits when interacting with anyone. it's such a common topic among normies to casually talk about height, weight, attraction. they're subconsciously blackpilled without knowing.

guys compare their height all the time, girls are hyper aware about their sexual market value as they immediately start questioning why is it that other girls get more attention, validation, and better treatment, etc. they soon realise that it's because of their looks, not pretty enough, or thin enough.

asking people about their immutable characteristics without any particular reason only serves one purpose, it is for peer social comparison to boost one's ego & know where they stand relative to everyone else. it's a way to gauge your position in society, so you can act accordingly to how you perceive yourself and how others perceive you to be. your identity is inextricably linked to your immutable characteristics, and everyone is blind to their own bias when it comes to treating people fairly without discrimination, which includes even me.

i don't want to be unfairly treated because i am aware of my subhuman genetics, something outside of my control. so i try my best to do the same with other people, to treat them based on things outside their control.

this begs the question, how much control do we have, and what can we even control?

i believe we can only change things within our genetic limit, and most of the time, we are completely & utterly unaware of what our genetic limit entails. here's an excerpt from the article below, it's about the idea of "the nature OF nurture"

https://www.theguardian.com/science...-all-genetics-robert-plomin-polygenic-testing

i'm in the middle of reading robert plomin's blueprint, and boyos, it's brutal as ever. it was over before the universe was even created

i searched up keywords for "robert plomin" and "blueprint" on here, but could not find a single thread discussing anything about his ideas or book. so i plan to make a thread in the future about it, if i find anything i think is worth mentioning to share

 

[bbwqs_v]

the world is a cold dark place if you're genetically unviable, i'm glad i have this place to cope.

today while i was driving on the way home, i was thinking about what is one thing i would want to say to the rest of the world if i had the chance & opportunity presented to me to announce something that would be heard & listened to by everyone, like a celebrity interview, or a scientist who made a revolutionary discovery, or a government news announcement.

i think if you asked most people, they would say something like "believe in yourself & your dreams, never give up," "i'm grateful for god," or they would want to leave a positive message to inspire the youth or raise the collective morale of society.

i think the best thing you could say, and something that i would say if given the chance, is "let the blackpill guide you."

here my interpretations of two quotes i thought were relevant:

"If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle."

yellow sentence: if you know your genetic limits/weaknesses (enemy) and your genetic capabilities/predispositions/strengths (yourself), you will know the best decision to make in any situation. congratulations, you are a blackpiller

red sentence: if you know your genetic capabilities, but not your genetic limits, you will become a redpillerwho suffers from the self-serving bias that will come bite you when you cannot understand why things didn't happen the way you wanted it to, you cling onto false hopes & dreams as you cannot accurately assess your genetic capabilities. for example, many men get cheated on and have no clue why; many people have unrealistic expectations about life, this leads to depression when expected outcomes are not met.

blue sentence: if you are unaware of both your genetic limits and genetic capabilities, you will become a bluepillerwho gets blown by the wind, believing that every event is due to mystical/divine forces like god or law of attraction/manifestation. you basically have no idea why things happen to way they do, you suffer from the just-world fallacy.

“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.” - Aristotle
this directly translates to: let the blackpill guide you

perhaps the number one killer and cause of death we see in men & maybe even women today, is the fatal BLACKPILL OVERDOSE!!! they never recovered from their bluepill withdrawal symptoms, it hit too fast & too quick, the weight of reality tore apart all their bodily orifices and creampied in all of them, leaving them unable to cope from the excessive blackpill cum, leaving its mark and searching for its next victim

 

[bbwqs_v]

so i try my best to do the same with other people, to treat them based on things outside their control.

ahhh i made an error, it's supposed to read:
"to treat them based on things NOT outside of their control (within their control)"

 

[Ahnfeltia]

i've finally realised my uni incel fate, the only value i am able to provide for society is my hard work & perhaps slightly above average intelligence. almost all of my social interactions can be boiled down to people just asking me for help on how to do this question, or that question, it just shows that all my value as a person lies in the extent to which i can benefit them.

But every life is equally invaluable sweetie

On a serious note, don't feel obliged to provide for society. What has society provided you but suffering?

why can't reality have been a world of only winners?

Because there can be no winners without losers. Life is a zero-sum game. Hence the consensus sapientum as Nietzsche calls it.

"If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle."

yellow sentence: if you know your genetic limits/weaknesses (enemy) and your genetic capabilities/predispositions/strengths (yourself), you will know the best decision to make in any situation. congratulations, you are a blackpiller

red sentence: if you know your genetic capabilities, but not your genetic limits, you will become a redpillerwho suffers from the self-serving bias that will come bite you when you cannot understand why things didn't happen the way you wanted it to, you cling onto false hopes & dreams as you cannot accurately assess your genetic capabilities. for example, many men get cheated on and have no clue why; many people have unrealistic expectations about life, this leads to depression when expected outcomes are not met.

blue sentence: if you are unaware of both your genetic limits and genetic capabilities, you will become a bluepillerwho gets blown by the wind, believing that every event is due to mystical/divine forces like god or law of attraction/manifestation. you basically have no idea why things happen to way they do, you suffer from the just-world fallacy.

Cool interpretation of Sun Tzu's famous words, altho I don't think the consequents are apt. I fail to see how blissful ignorance and naïveté are tantamount to succumbing. Are the blackpillers not the ones who succumbed to life, unable to cope with the cruelty of reality. Is truth truly worth more than felicity? Moreover, I would say I'm blackpilled, yet I dread every battle -- for I know the outcome will not be favorable. The same old show I fear.

 

[Izayacel]

Play a Summoner class for imsginary Friends.

 

[Simulacrasimulation]

when i was in highschool, i spent all my lunch breaks in the library alone coz i didn’t have friends to hang out with. being on the autism spectrum & being unattractive made me despise people for the unfair treatment i experienced, clinging onto education as my only hope & last resort was the only thing i could do.

fast forward to exams, then ppl suddenly became my friends and started asking me to teach them & solve questions for them.

now im uni and it’s the same shit
i planned to coast through uni friendless but i thought it’s crucial i developed the most basic social networking skills for my future, and i happened to find myself in a circle of normies by pure luck of where i sat down on the first day. now they’ve noticed that im outperforming them academically and they’re always asking me how to do the assignments & basically spoonfeed them.

what’s even the point of friends in uni? it’s all just a function of utility & transactional value. there’s no incels to bond with irl, even if there were, they’d probably be too high inhib & have a similar array of problems socialising that even if we both wanted to, we’re more likely to end up further apart coz we both don’t know how to communicate. i’d like to befriend a male friend who’s similar to me but they’re nowhere to be found. no blackpilled autistic studycel.

but i guess it’s not that bad, studymaxxing is kinda comfy. better than ldar neeting. i fucking hate people though

the problem is at the start they saw you as the incel in the room and were saving you for future studymaxx options, now they are collecting their dues for being your "friend".

DUMP LIKE A BAG OF HOT SHIT

and try pretty hard to find like minded study cels like yourself in libraries try and strike up conversations with fellow cels etc its is a rejection acceptance game also like dating, but fake friends arent worth shit

also after study they will ghost you and there will be no "networking" effect you hope for, they will disappear and act like you werent alive, DONT HOLD OUT FOR THIS OUTCOME