One of the most disturbing times of my life was the first half of 2022. I think I legitimately went insane during those months but recovered to some degree about half-way through the year. During that time I was going on many lonely walks in the neighborhood. One day as I was returning, I was on the very street of my house and I saw a SIGHT that I still cannot forget. I don't know why I thought of it tonight but anyway…
I saw an open garage and there was a teenage guy, probably a bit younger than I was at the time, working out with his girlfriend. I saw him staring at his girlfriend as I she was doing some kind of exercise, I think it was pushups or situps—something on the ground. It was truly awful, especially because I didn't have as thick skin as I do now. I hadn't been exposed to as much of seeing couples and also PDA as I have now. But seeing the enjoyment of this guy, with his girlfriend, how he was watching her in tight workout clothing of course… it was absolutely BRUTAL. And I am as alienated from girls today as I was then, despite now residing at the college. It's over.
I saw an open garage and there was a teenage guy, probably a bit younger than I was at the time, working out with his girlfriend. I saw him staring at his girlfriend as I she was doing some kind of exercise, I think it was pushups or situps—something on the ground. It was truly awful, especially because I didn't have as thick skin as I do now. I hadn't been exposed to as much of seeing couples and also PDA as I have now. But seeing the enjoyment of this guy, with his girlfriend, how he was watching her in tight workout clothing of course… it was absolutely BRUTAL. And I am as alienated from girls today as I was then, despite now residing at the college. It's over.
