I'm a lonely shut-in NEET who's life revolves around working my suicidefuel job at a restaurant waiting on couples like a cuck and then after my grueling shift coming home to my parents who are totally disappointed in me for being a low status failure. Occasionally I even getting an angry rant from my whore mother about how I'm not chad or why I'm not earning more income. After all that's over I usually drink myself to sleep on a mattress and then wake up with a hangover, shower, commute to work and repeat. One of my favorite copes (besides booze lol) is talking to a small group of online friends I've cultivated over the years.
Although I'm the only fuck up in the group (aside from some other guy but he roped) I actually fit in pretty well with everyone. I by far get the most shit from everyone but honestly it doesn't really bother me. My shitty life has made me almost totally dead inside and I could care less about people criticizing my miserable existence on this big shit heap of a planet. Anyways this friend group of mine consists of 6 people roughly (some come and go) and it's stayed together for a solid 5 years now. Everyone in the group knows I'm an incel and routinely gives me shit and bitches about my posts on here (they know my account name.)
I wouldn't say these guys are bluepilled. Maybe more so purplepilled? Lol. They talk shit about inceltears occasionally but me being on here definitely grinds their gears. One person in the group a little more so than everyone else. This guy (I'll call him fag) became associated with the group sometime in the middle of it's existence. In the beginning of us knowing each other he borderline bullied me for my lifestyle choices and me being incel (it hurt pretty bad seeing as it was coming from someone inside the friend group) and overtime it started to get pretty bad. He would mock me and make fun of me for my poor speaking skills and it definitely became clear that he was going out of his way to target me the most.
Although he did chill out overtime primarily due to me telling him to fuck off and him realizing that his shit behavior was effecting other people in the group it still happens frequently. He would later go on to admit to the group that he's a "sociopath" who can't feel empathy for others and that we were pretty much just a cope for him to do shit with when he was bored of his extensive social life irl (felt nice to hear that lol.)
Before this friend group though I was sort of associated with another group of people online. In this group there was this girl who I became friends with (she didn't know what I look like seeing as it was online.) It was super hard talking to her and I was a nervous wreck. I have aspergers so all of our "conversations" were super awkward and basically borderline soy. This was back in my bluepill days and although I've always been physically a disgusting monster I was somewhat hopeful back then that girls would look past my appearance
. I was also very respectful and kind to her and by far talked to her more than anyone else in the group (THIS MATTERS LATER.)
Anyways this girl eventually left for college but right before she broke off contact with us she revealed to the group how she has a crush on this chad associated with us which definitely hurt pretty bad. Although we were friends I very quickly developed feelings due to her being literally the only girl I knew that was my age at the time. Anyways fast forward to somewhat recently and this girl comes back and became somewhat associated with my current group due to the aforementioned chad she crushed on being somewhat associated with it as well.
So almost immediately after she came back her and fag (the dude that bullies me who I mentioned prior to this) start talking... a lot. They would talk basically every day and have super deep and emotional conversations in private calls. Not even that far into them knowing each other they would start a sort of long distance relationship and this girl even broke up with her irl ethnic boyfriend (who had a mental breakdown over it in his class) for this dude she barely knows. Just fucking wait. You thought that was bad? What until you hear this. Just a little into their new e-relationship they make this pact to meet up irl and have sex (wish I was joking.) Fag also ends the relationship by "cheating" on her with a girl irl. And on top of all that THEY STILL KEEP IN FUCKING CONTACT.
At this point I was totally blackpilled. I had fully lost any empathy I previously had for women and became totally aware that women don't develop attraction for men or "mature" towards liking a certain kind of man. Something I could only imagine experiencing he got with little to no effort LITERALLY JUST BECAUSE HE'S A NARCISSISTIC CHAD. It became clear to me that women want a very specific kind of man. And it's a kind of man that I'm incapable of becoming.
Although I'm the only fuck up in the group (aside from some other guy but he roped) I actually fit in pretty well with everyone. I by far get the most shit from everyone but honestly it doesn't really bother me. My shitty life has made me almost totally dead inside and I could care less about people criticizing my miserable existence on this big shit heap of a planet. Anyways this friend group of mine consists of 6 people roughly (some come and go) and it's stayed together for a solid 5 years now. Everyone in the group knows I'm an incel and routinely gives me shit and bitches about my posts on here (they know my account name.)
I wouldn't say these guys are bluepilled. Maybe more so purplepilled? Lol. They talk shit about inceltears occasionally but me being on here definitely grinds their gears. One person in the group a little more so than everyone else. This guy (I'll call him fag) became associated with the group sometime in the middle of it's existence. In the beginning of us knowing each other he borderline bullied me for my lifestyle choices and me being incel (it hurt pretty bad seeing as it was coming from someone inside the friend group) and overtime it started to get pretty bad. He would mock me and make fun of me for my poor speaking skills and it definitely became clear that he was going out of his way to target me the most.
Although he did chill out overtime primarily due to me telling him to fuck off and him realizing that his shit behavior was effecting other people in the group it still happens frequently. He would later go on to admit to the group that he's a "sociopath" who can't feel empathy for others and that we were pretty much just a cope for him to do shit with when he was bored of his extensive social life irl (felt nice to hear that lol.)
Before this friend group though I was sort of associated with another group of people online. In this group there was this girl who I became friends with (she didn't know what I look like seeing as it was online.) It was super hard talking to her and I was a nervous wreck. I have aspergers so all of our "conversations" were super awkward and basically borderline soy. This was back in my bluepill days and although I've always been physically a disgusting monster I was somewhat hopeful back then that girls would look past my appearance
. I was also very respectful and kind to her and by far talked to her more than anyone else in the group (THIS MATTERS LATER.)Anyways this girl eventually left for college but right before she broke off contact with us she revealed to the group how she has a crush on this chad associated with us which definitely hurt pretty bad
. Although we were friends I very quickly developed feelings due to her being literally the only girl I knew that was my age at the time. Anyways fast forward to somewhat recently and this girl comes back and became somewhat associated with my current group due to the aforementioned chad she crushed on being somewhat associated with it as well.So almost immediately after she came back her and fag (the dude that bullies me who I mentioned prior to this) start talking... a lot. They would talk basically every day and have super deep and emotional conversations in private calls. Not even that far into them knowing each other they would start a sort of long distance relationship and this girl even broke up with her irl ethnic boyfriend (who had a mental breakdown over it in his class) for this dude she barely knows. Just fucking wait. You thought that was bad? What until you hear this. Just a little into their new e-relationship they make this pact to meet up irl and have sex (wish I was joking.) Fag also ends the relationship by "cheating" on her with a girl irl. And on top of all that THEY STILL KEEP IN FUCKING CONTACT
.At this point I was totally blackpilled. I had fully lost any empathy I previously had for women and became totally aware that women don't develop attraction for men or "mature" towards liking a certain kind of man. Something I could only imagine experiencing he got with little to no effort LITERALLY JUST BECAUSE HE'S A NARCISSISTIC CHAD. It became clear to me that women want a very specific kind of man. And it's a kind of man that I'm incapable of becoming
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