Same, I have a rape fetish due to this shit, normal consensual sex is arousing but not as much as rape to me. Maybe its some kind of coping mechanism our brains do automatically, I figure my brain comprehended that I wasn't getting any stimulus via consensual means, so to compensate it "rewired" non-consensual stimulus to be my primary attraction. Something like this probably takes place mentally even among animal males to induce an "alternative mating strategy" to ensure that they get to reproduce.
Unlike those other animal males, humans have these things like jails and laws lol.