the primal urge is killing me, I need help, I can't really take it anymore. whenever I see a hot female with a guy I just wanna kill the guy and it is getting out of control, I can literally feel the rage in my body, I think this is something deeply biological and evolutionary, I need to stop this killer instinct I don't wanna die, but I also don't wanna kill some nigger and die like a dumb ape it is too dumb and impulsive. maybe I need to see some prostitute soon otherwise it is not looking good for me. I wish I can somehow turn off this primitive lizard brain of mine but that is my drive and motivation to live and improve.
