But not by roping or getting murdered, I just didn't want to exist. I struggle with the fact that I am a real person, with memories and actions. I suffer by knowing that my physical body, the vessel in which I was born, was so rejected and trampled on. I wish there never was an "I".
I don't want to rope, I don't want to die, it wouldn't be enough. I want to erase all the traces of my existence, and I am struggling for real with this. I am feeling something I can't explain, it is so uncomfortable, it is like my being is an error, every single movement I perform is disgusting and makes me angry. I don't know how to solve it. I just wish I never was.
I don't want to rope, I don't want to die, it wouldn't be enough. I want to erase all the traces of my existence, and I am struggling for real with this. I am feeling something I can't explain, it is so uncomfortable, it is like my being is an error, every single movement I perform is disgusting and makes me angry. I don't know how to solve it. I just wish I never was.
