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“When I wake up, the real nightmare begins!”
This is from the lyrics to “Smash Your Enemies” by the metal band Hatebreed.
I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for a few years now. It’s better now. But it isn’t completely gone. I still have work to do. The work won’t be easy. I don’t know if the results I desire will be good.
the OCD I had became intense in 12th grade, but I could still enjoy life then. In 1st semester it was extreme but I still could do things and be happy. 2nd semester it was less intense and I didn’t worry about it all day. Then when 1st year of college began, my OCD became so extreme it was insane. I went through depression and suicidal thoughts sometimes and in 2nd year of college it got better. I still struggle but less frequently. I face isolation in college. I get lonely at college. I could see people I know all the time in high school but at community college there’s nobody.
a lot of people on the internet caused my ocd. These weren’t people I communicated with, but they were people online who hassled others online, and the things they said gave me bigger OCD. IT wasn’t those people then though. In fact, IT don’t affect my OCD but IT still are cunts.
when I wake up (meaning bring my life back to normal), the real nightmare begins (those people online, the nightmare for them would be me recovering them from them and bringing my life back to normal). When I wake up the real nightmare begins=when I bring my life back to normal, I will be back to normal, which is a nightmare for my enemies.
lyrics to smash your enemies
I hope I'm alive
To witness your demise
Make you feel my sorrow
Encompass all my pain
That I've felt for years
Dreading each dying day
Hanging by a thread
On the edge of my sanity
When I wake up the real nightmare begins
Will I make through my time in living hell?
Do I possess the strength to smash my fears into the ground?
I've tried to be strong
I've tried to overcome but I don't think I possess the strength to carry on
I'm torn between, and there's no right choice
I've gotta fight back
I won't be scarred for life
This is from the lyrics to “Smash Your Enemies” by the metal band Hatebreed.
I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for a few years now. It’s better now. But it isn’t completely gone. I still have work to do. The work won’t be easy. I don’t know if the results I desire will be good.
the OCD I had became intense in 12th grade, but I could still enjoy life then. In 1st semester it was extreme but I still could do things and be happy. 2nd semester it was less intense and I didn’t worry about it all day. Then when 1st year of college began, my OCD became so extreme it was insane. I went through depression and suicidal thoughts sometimes and in 2nd year of college it got better. I still struggle but less frequently. I face isolation in college. I get lonely at college. I could see people I know all the time in high school but at community college there’s nobody.
a lot of people on the internet caused my ocd. These weren’t people I communicated with, but they were people online who hassled others online, and the things they said gave me bigger OCD. IT wasn’t those people then though. In fact, IT don’t affect my OCD but IT still are cunts.
when I wake up (meaning bring my life back to normal), the real nightmare begins (those people online, the nightmare for them would be me recovering them from them and bringing my life back to normal). When I wake up the real nightmare begins=when I bring my life back to normal, I will be back to normal, which is a nightmare for my enemies.
lyrics to smash your enemies
I hope I'm alive
To witness your demise
Make you feel my sorrow
Encompass all my pain
That I've felt for years
Dreading each dying day
Hanging by a thread
On the edge of my sanity
When I wake up the real nightmare begins
Will I make through my time in living hell?
Do I possess the strength to smash my fears into the ground?
I've tried to be strong
I've tried to overcome but I don't think I possess the strength to carry on
I'm torn between, and there's no right choice
I've gotta fight back
I won't be scarred for life
