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July 1st, 2022, one of the most important days in my life the day I had fully excepted the truth the day I fully excepted the blackpill the day I had realized it's over. That day started like any other summer day for me I woke up at around 11 or 12 watched YouTube in bed for a little bit before getting out of bed going to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then went upstairs to get some food. I made some ramen and went back down to my room I chilled out for most the day playing Minecraft and GTA 5 on my Xbox I did this until around 6:00 or 7:00 and then went on to the YouTube app on my Xbox but I only got a few seconds in to a video before getting a party invite. It was from one of my Chad "friends" I didn't want to join because he usually makes fun of me and mostly talks about sex, but I was so bored that I decided to join once I did it was not just him there was another "friend" of mine a normie. I asked them what they wanted they told me they wanted to talk about stuff, and I asked "what stuff" they said just things in general at first, we talked about how things have been and the normie seemed even more happy and excited than normal he also seemed very braggy about how good things have been for him. The Chad then asked the normie "can we tell him" the normie said "yes I will @? I will be getting pussy" I didn't respond he then said "but I won't just get pussy from one girl I will fuck another one in the same week" I responded "really who" not believing him because I was coping. He actually said the names of the foids which was a shock one was a white Becky and the other was a light skin Stacylite now I knew he was not lying because he wouldn't say their names if he was lying because he could get caught that way and also because I saw the Stacylite flirting with him near the end of the school year, but I was still coping and in denial, so I said "come on man stop lying" the Chad responded "he is not lying you literally saw them flirting". That was it I finally turned off my copium tank I yelled out "this isn't fair why don't girls want to have sex with me" the normie responded "um because your ugly as fuck and because your retarded" I started screaming about how this isn't fair and how much I hate both of them then left. I then turned off my Xbox and laid in bed filled with nothing but pure sadness, anger and hate I was thinking of what my next move is. Do I rope? Do I drop out of school and LDAR early? do I take my revenge? I didn't have anything to do until I remembered this forum, I knew about this place sense around late 2020 to early 2021 and knew about the blackpill from YouTubers like Wheat Waffles. I decided this is the place for me, so I registered was excepted and the rest is history.
