I tried to change while in the military, tried to be NT but i couldnt because Sepcial Forces are brutal and being NT will crush you. So, what did i do? I tried to contact my oneitis, failed obviously and now im left with an endless void and a blackened heart. I gained lots of strength during my service and the emptiness makes me even stronger, its the only way to get through this even if fucked up. People can notice a change in behavior, im rude and moody now, a corporal got pissed at me because i was laughing sarcastically at him. He said "So this is who you really are". Its hard to hide and idc really.
Prison? Im already in a prison without her. Pain? Im already dead. Wont see home again? Home is where the heart is and mine is with her. These idiots cant touch me and cant figure me out for all care. Ik she doesnt give a fuck about me, but i dont care. Being with her is good but keeping the enemy away from her is better.
Prison? Im already in a prison without her. Pain? Im already dead. Wont see home again? Home is where the heart is and mine is with her. These idiots cant touch me and cant figure me out for all care. Ik she doesnt give a fuck about me, but i dont care. Being with her is good but keeping the enemy away from her is better.
