I hate new years eve, I am always depressed during it even though I know its just a superficial date on a calendar. I remember checking social media and seeing normies at partys having fun celebrating while I was in my room doing nothing other than playing games or watching movies. I realized that I had achieved nothing in the whole year and that it didn't look like things would get better either. What will be brutal about this coming one is that it will be a whole new decade rather than year and I will realize that I have not achieved anything during it. I can feel the loathe and despair just thinking about it and worst of all is that its not that far away. I achieved nothing in this decade and won't achieve anything in the next one, its over.
